I’m just going to put my thoughts out there so I don’t let the sad get to me too badly. Feel free to pass this post up.
I feel completely indifferent about dying. But I know I don’t want to live anymore. I won’t leave this earth by suicide because I owe it to my loved ones to stay. I guess I’m just having a moment of sadness.
I didn’t ask to be born and I don’t want to stay anymore. The older I get the more often terrible things happen. The more I understand that this world is not one I want to be in. People always say that life doesn’t get any easier when you’re older but they leave out the part where it get worse.
My problems compound just by me existing. I don’t wanna do it anymore. I just want to opt out of the life I never opted into and call it quits.