Over the past few years, since I got sick, my cognition has steadily deteriorated, along with my ability to have a meaningful conversation. I have trouble organizing my thoughts and I have to really concentrate on every sentence that I say. Even when I know what I want to say, I can’t seem to get it to come out right—I can’t remember the words to describe things, the words are out of order, I talk in a circle, etc. It’s gotten to the point where I’ve stopped talking to anyone. I feel so helpless and alone.
There was a social gathering at a co-worker’s house after work today. I want so very much to go to these things, but the stress of trying to communicate with people is so high that I stay away.
Ha ha…I AM a college graduate, but it’s a lot easier sitting here typing and figuring out beforehand how it’s gonna sound…socially, my dog is more appropriate than I am. Have you ever noticed that even on this site sometimes my filter sucks and I’m not necessarily very tactful? I am a social nightmare lol!
Are you considered permanently disabled? I got documentation from my doctors and submitted stuff that got my student loans forgiven due to disability…$70,000 worth written off.
I have a job and am able to work for the time being, so I’m not sure I would qualify. My main issues are cognitive and negative symptoms. I do feel like I’m just trying to hang on as long as I can though. That’s awesome that you got your debt dissolved. I have just about the same amount…
I have trouble even writing, my sentences are chaotic. I give up going to group gatherings so i understand. Maybe it’s just a phase of sz. Donț mind If i ask you, how long since You been diagnosticed, what meds are You on??
It’s been a couple years, since 2014 I think. The years since my psychotic break have all run together somewhat. I’m on Risperdal, Wellbutrin, and Buspar.
