I am unhappy

i am still sad. i posted my photos on antoher forum and they told me not to complain and that i look sad…
it sucks, i cant get out of this sadness since years now… yeah, i watch the news after the paris attack and i cant feel nothing :(…
otherwise,here i am, i was really tired on this photo since yesterday…


at least, i watche the photo camera already, i couldn’t do it before…

You are definetly depressed. You should talk to your pdoc or try some therapy. Being stuck on that loop is not good for you.

minniiiiiiiiiiiiii, the ads didn’t help me either at the time. i am not sure i should take more chemistry… ■■■■…

How about therapy? You keep dodging this question.
Seriously, you’re stuck on a loop. In order to be able to get out of it you need to want to get better. Doesn’t really matter how much you complaint, if you want to be stuck, there is where you’ll be.
There are a lot of therapies that can help you, maybe CBT for that paranoia. I’m sure there are CBT therapists in Sofia.

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Just keep in mind that things can change. Try to break out of your old mental habits. Try doing something different. Go for a walk. Eat out. Don’t be too needy, but don’t be afraid to lean on others. Maybe take a day to pamper yourself. Get some DVD’s and watch movies all day. Cook something you like. You can practice some cbt on yourself. Instead of saying to yourself, “I’m so miserable”; say, “I’m enjoying myself today”.

yeah, now i do almost all these things. i really dont want to have some antidepressants, they will make a mess by me… and maybe my suffering is my negative symptoms of the illness, not a typical depression. my two laptops dont work well, i should buy a new one… my mom will give me money once again :/… but its all my life my computers, its my connection with the world,…
ill see a friend of mine today,thats all.

My computer is substantially my connection to the world also. I live at an assisted living center for the mentally ill, so I have a certain amount of support from that. It can help just to have people around you. Maybe you shouldn’t be afraid of anti-depressants. Sometimes they can do a lot of good.

crimby, the ads sometimes trigger psychosis. i dont need this right now. yeah, catfish,i am stuck with the myself but i am still afraid of people. thats what do 13 years of unhappiness, i wanna cry still, i regret it cause i dont feel fine. i am stupid, i dont get the things, and the zyprexa is not like nothing,it kills our emotions but maybe ill get used to it…

Well anna I hope that you feel better and I would really like to hear from you.

thank you catfish. its sometimes the meds probably. i suppose that they trigger a little bit my sadness… my mood is changing in the day. its per waves, per moments, its strange…