OK, it’s my day 4 without it. And I am ruuushing in my mind lol… all my energy was in my head, but even because of that rushing, I don’t think well, I mean not very intelligent thoughts lol…
My body is in pain too… I can’t calm down in fact. I find, that I was mainly psychologically addicted to this help… But after years on klonopin, it just started to depress me and was no more a help for my mental and somatic pains…
Tbh, I want still to try without it, I think only of it now, but maybe this will ease in the coming days…
Why does the zyprexa don’t help my rushing mind now or it’s like this in a benzo withdrawal?
I have my somatic disorder as well, which is maybe worse than my sz tbh… it’s so painful, I knew the pain only for years, pals… there’s no good meds for somatic disorder, I should change my mind and my life.
But well, now I took one sup (valerian, mint, hawthorn syrup) and it calmed down a bit my anxiety and my excitation and even my somatics. Is it dangerous even for a sz to be just on a supplement for his anxiety and somatic disorder? If it helps, why not, right?
I still take my zyprexa though and my benadryl.
Do you ever used this supp too? The valerian, mint, hawthorn syrup? There’s a bit of alcohol in it too 
Maybe it’ll finally be better off klonopin, even though I have a serious mi, no? 
Take care all! Sorry if I am annoying though, the psych meds never helped me much tbh, I guess, because of my conversion disorder as well. I still take the ap, my pdoc said that I’ll be even worse without it, but I still have no life because of the pain and the rest… anyway, hugs!!!
@Anna1 you have to taper down from Klonopin very slowly.
Over months.
Have your doctor help you.
I was on 0,5 mgs for 4 months… I had enough of it… what can happen? I can die??? I don’t think so…
This med was depressing me… idk, I’ll try to do it toughly… I found the calming supp today too.
And you’re very wrong. Coming off benzos suddenly can kill you, especially if you’ve been on them for years.
By which cause in fact?
Idk, I probably just suffer mainly from the withdrawal symptoms now, that’s all for… I mean my paranoia etc… my current pdoc is against the klonopin for me… I guess he believes, that the zyprexa already does the thing…
I am still experimenting until when I’ll last without klonopin , that’s all… maybe, one of these coming days, I’ll think less about it… I was always too obsessed about my meds, I try not to be it now but yeah, idk where this will end…
My supp option is helping me a bit now too lol…
I was on Klonopin for a few years. I told my pdoc I had given a couple of my klonopin to a girl who was withdrawing from heroin, and he took me off the drug. He did it gradually - a smaller and smaller dose over time. It wasn’t too bad. I think my dependence on it was largely psychological. The strength of addiction to the benzos varies from person to person. One person might come off them easily, while another really struggles with it.
I hope you can get better without klonopin good luck
It’s good to want to come off, but it has to be extremely slow as others have said.
Please don’t rush it. You have to take your time with all these meds.
Believe me, I have learned the hard way on too many occasions
Yes, you can have a seizure and die.
Cut down very slowly, over a period of months. An easy method is to chop your pills into 20 roughly equal sized pieces. Then take 19 pieces for a few weeks, then 18 pieces, then 17 pieces, etc…
The general rule with benzos is reduce your dosage by 10% of your previous dose every 4 weeks, And for some people that is too fast.
When quitting benzos with minimal withdrawal symptoms slow and steady wins the race.
Just take 1 day at a time and don’t worry about it. There is no rush.
I think, that I can’t stop it now… I was in lot of pain today… I guess it’s bad for the negatives, but I think I have no choice now… I was all paranoid, not calm, terrible headaches and somatics…
Maybe one day I’ll get over my negatives…
But tbh, I think that even my online bf now avoids me after I bugged only on this med the last 4 days…
Yeah, the isolation finished me too I find… idk how I’ll get back my life after 20 years… I try it lately, but I still have lots of sz and somatic symptoms, so it’s quite despairing sometimes tbh 
…
I took just now 0,5 mgs, I guess this is my dose too, I’ve been on it for the past 6 months, I was in some maintained ,minimum good state…
I am the worst case in this forum I think…
And it’s bad, that I’ve been ill since the age of 10, without treatment too then, hiding my pain, cause I risked to be beaten up by my father if I was different…
No one can stand me anymore… idk for when feeling better, I’ve became quite dumb too around all the meds and my shock…
No Anna, you’re not the worst, we all struggle really bad day by day
I have benzos to take but I try not to use them regularly because I know how really addictive they are, and hubby keeps them out of reach so I’m not tempted to overdose
I struggled in childhood with bad anxiety paranoia, teens much worse I can’t go into details
I have schizophrenia, agoraphobia and personality disorder
My anxiety goes thru the roof when I go out even with someone. I Don’t go out alone anymore
I’m like a closed book, I share very little with people and I Don’t share much online. I’m worried
Take it easy!
Oh, thank you for the answer 
OK, we struggle every day OK… but I am alone since 30 years, dear… the men don’t like my precise sz you know… I was diagnosed once with personality disorder too in fact, I guess I have both, sz and that, plus the somatoform disorder…
I hope you feel better though… it’s possible after years, where my brain was literally smashed?
Our brains can recover you think?
It’s the worse prognosis though if you had it since kid lol…
Am glad you are not alone though , for real
OK, maybe I do smth wrong in my illness too, idk…
You know, my pdoc was saying, that my sz is not so severe, but more painful… but I’ve heard her behind her door, that she said to my mother, that it’s a very severe illness…
well maybe this forum will be some company for you as it is for me.
I don’t hold much faith in a cure I have tried reading about mental health but it doesn’t help at all
i’ve tried therapies like cbt and eye movement desensitization whatever and just counselling but I cried my eyes out the first few times i went. I also tried pouring everything out. I’m none the better for it. I feel like a train wreck
Yeah, but my sz is incompatible with the others people, you know…
I bug so much, I complain so much that everyone runs away… I have paranoid sz with negative symptoms, the personality disorder and in plus, the somatoform like…
Anyway… I’ve read that the most painful disorder is the personality one lol…
And maybe my fault that I couldn’t love nobody anymore for years…
I feel as a wreck lately too, some say, that I sound like dying… can you die from loneliness and isolation? Yeah… there’s my cigarettes too lol…
Have you ever felt unworthy to be lived? It’s hell on earth I find…
Anyway, I’ll try to become more positive lol… my brain needs more waking up too I find 
Do you use benzos, bumble? I wonder if they won’t put me down too, but maybe I need them around my sz…
You should speak to a doctor before changing your meds
Life is unbearable 
we have to give a little and get on with it.
Do you listen to music or do much?
I feel brighter if I can get a few things done
It feels like I’m existing just to brush my teeth or eat a sandwich most days
Life is hard you got that right!
I Don’t have any love I don’t feel love , I don’t feel normal like loved. I can’t feel very much
I’m married but I don’t know why he’s sticking around tbh. I’m a hopeless cause.
He feels guilty for the way he used to treat me bad.
I forgive him
Don’t say you are a hopeless cause… well, I guess that the others still can love us, no matter that I couldn’t feel it before… idk if I’ll change on this though yeah… cause life is love, it can’t go anywhere, it’s in the others too lol…
Well, you know, I had a sedentary for years, but I had this uncalm mind too, full with bulls***. Yeap, now I try to move more tbh… but as today, I just got ragy that I am still numb… that my emotions are a bit negative now… but I guess I should take this now lol… the klonopin is good only for the paranoia, it’s bad on the negatives… but there’s no med for the negatives either yeap…
And yes, activity is good, it can pull out us a bit I find… idk, I was so worried that I have so few good things in me, I don’t want my previous life… but maybe I’ll find one day what is to feel relatively fine in a sick mind idk…
I had almost negative feelings for long, there was only the pain for years, bumble… it ruined my physical health too, my beauty, my humanity maybe idk…
Anyway. Try to enjoy your husband eh, OK?
Me, I wonder if I just didn’t become too tough as a character around all my loneliness and the illness…
I still wonder if the abuse in my family made me sick… my mother and sister believe that it’s genetic though…
Take care you, let’s try to feel alive yeah
Okay can but try, goodnight it’s late here in England
Chat some other time, sleep well and keep taking your meds x
Hey, guys…
In fact i had to take a bit of klonopin yesterday, my state was quite physical too in fact, sheesh…
But now id try to make my consumption of klonopin as a prn… Its still good this, right? Take it only like when i have such severe states as yesterday… Its doable, isnt it?
Now i feel strange… Ive watched the new episode of ‘‘euphoria’’ and i feel way too aware, maybe i am paranoid…
Do you think, that breaking a bit more my total isolation is doable? Yeah… idk…
yeah, for now i’ll just push more the take of klonopin until i cant anymore… I should try to less think about the meds, my mom thinks that i am mainly psychologically dependent on klonopin… But theres my illness too in it in fact… My current pdoc said, that i am an obsessive type of paranoid sz yeap 
anyway, i get influenced even by a simple movie as euphoria now… Someone watches this these days too? 
it came back after 2 years in fact heh…
Big hugs to all, ive accepted more lately, that i have this style of life, i work to not be paranoid too, idk if the efforts can help lol 
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