Computer programming can be fun, but not anymore after my psychotic episode almost a decade ago.
I think it’s time for you to seek the meaning of life.
I dont know what’s the meaning to my life. Clueless. What about u?
I am worse than you. I was once an active Christian, but now I need to rethink my life and the whole world again. Sometimes I consider the teaching of Laozi- Taoism.
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I’m afraid I am going to die of Alzheimer’s, which is a long, slow death. I’m hoping they won’t have to give me stronger anti-psychotics. I’d rather go quicker, even if it is a painful death. It would be a bitter irony if I was forced to finish my life on Haldol.
I’m eating and sleeping because i am not dead yet. I’m sort of like this. I love my mom but i dont think she know the difference.
They will have better meds for alzheimers when the time comes. I also dont want to die with it, I rather be a psychotic old woman
It is been said “a living dog is stronger than a dead lion” (or anything similar).
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Plumber is right. Taoism helped me a lot. Its not a religion
Well, being psychotic is very difficult already. I want to leave my mother and be gone every time I’ve a psychotic break. I just dont know what would happen if i have a severe relapse again.
I was trying desparately to leave earth last time.
Philosophy is beyond my mastery these days. I find it not easy to understand a simple sentence like that.
I have the same thing with my mother. When psychotic I just want to be left alone with my delusions. I decided that Im going to start therapy soon. I need to know how to deal with myself
Then look for annotation. That’s what I do.
I have low abilities i have lost a lot of my cognitive. I dont understand and cant remember. My sz makes thinking straight really difficult for me. My friend said i better do sth repetitive. But i used to be a high achiever i get bored easily and am aiming for the highest quality possible for everything i work on. It makes me really suffered emotionally i cant do what i wanted to do.
You know about neuroplasticity? Brain training apps or on the browser would be good for you.
Well, i thought my mother wanted to sell me for money or is doing sth against me i was desparately running away. In real life I’m depending on my mom to live. I dont know what I’d do next time.
It’s actually dangerous to be psychotic.
Im a suicide risk during psychosis. I dont know how my life is going to be after my mom passes. I hope I’ll have the strenght
I studied neuropsychology and what i know about the training they are very domain specific.
A friend asked me what i still want to do with my time. I can think of writing manga and software program. But it is so unlikely i will meet success.
I haven’t think of sunrise sunset for a very long time. I often feel a little restless i think i haven’t been able to enjoy life.
Just watch one, the feeling will come back.
Idk, maybe use lower standards. First you learn, then you try to something with what you learned
My nurse said build up relationships and support system in advance. (for my mom would leave) It’s threatening to me. I don’t have a support system. I cant exchange ideas adequately (dont understand, cant express) it looks so impossible. But I’m talking more recently. My mother told me today she feels frightened of me as i looked so blank and often locked myself up in my bedroom for long hours. She said she dont know what is going on with me likw whats in my head. It must be really weird to look at me. But I’m glad we are communicating more. I have been saying more meaningful sentences lately. I use to be very restricted in what i could say.
Ah well, thats good than. Good for you.
I’m also more talkative lately. I was in a deep depression and just talked the bare minimum. Now I can express ideas and be more social