So last December was my most recent, 3rd psychosis episode and although I thought hey this could all be my chemical imbalance it’s not real, another part of me, after having gone thru two episodes already, still believed that omg what if this is a real mission n I will go hell if I drug the voice out with med, so I chose not to tell anyone and give it a chance for like a month or so, but the family noticed n then the voices even said to me just take the med its not a real batch.
So how are u in ur last episode,and when was it, did u still believe its real or…
(I’m so bored and you guys are all interesting to listen to :))
If you mean voices I had them from October to January last and it was hell. Although some delusions crumbled towards the end and then the voices stopped. It was relieving but still hard because By the end the voice would tell me that it is in full control of me. I think they call this delusions of control. And yes I am fully convinced my voice is real. Iv also had many coincidences which prove this (and not something simple like I seen someone driving the same colored car, I mean holy ■■■■ coincidences)
Delusions of control. That is one that really scares me too. What kind of things did you experience that made u feel it was in control. I experienced it twisting my intestines it didn’t hurt but I could feel the knots being formed with my intestines absolutely weird like it was being done under anastasthetic so I could sense it just not the pain. and another time telling me it was slowly drugging me and it felt like that aswell, n it will only stop til I go to ae n tell em I need a ct scan for brain cancer or something like that. And threatening to kill me at night if I go to sleep. I wonder if anyone has ever died from psychosis out of sheer terror and anxiety from these voices like a heart attack or something not actually suicide
No I haven’t tried that. I texted him once but got no reply. With the control delusions, the voice told me that it was giving me urges to hit my mother and I would get the urge. I also had spells of intense paranoia and the voice would tell me that it was them. They also had a curse called the ‘insanity’ curse which when they used I would become really panicky and generally unstable. What else? They also proved it by making me think of certain things whatever they wanted usually but I would recognize the thought as not my own and that’s how I got out of that one. My voice also told me that it could slowly drug me and proved it by making me calm right down one time I was really nervous. I think it could be possible to die by heart attack if you were prone to them.
I also two times felt they could make me think differently it was not nice cos I didn’t wanna think what they were making me think. But that is a good techiniq just recognise it as not ur own thoughts ill see if I can do that if it happens again thankyou
Ya you just have to be really conscious of where your mind wanders too because it could be them. Bear in mind the voices are not real and this is all your own thoughts but that’s what I did at the time. Thought control is one of the main symptoms of schizophrenia.
I’m not sure what we mean by when we say ‘real’ but I still wonder if they could actually kill me or put me in long term excruciating pain or so and I also wonder if I could gain some form of control over them by being more assertive with them and for example negotiating times to talk in a civilised way. Maybe they are there for a reason. I don’t believe that wen it’s the voice of a person I know that it is actually coming from that person. I think that’s just coming from within me somehow.
In a way I would like to speak to them again in the future to see if I can gain some form of boundary with them if u know wat I mean except I don’t wanna be medicated again in that case or for my dose to be raised in that case
@anon47167357 sorry if u have already mentioned in another thread I don’t get round to reading all threads but what are the really crazy coincidences u get?