Like, I seriously lost all push to acheive. The meds make the hallucinations go away, but I used to feel like an internal push to make something of myself. Maybe its because I have a home and dont need college to pay rent anymore. I was on a success binge before when I was 26, now I can barely clean my house. I should probably put on some music and do that.
My tables a mess theres popcorn on the floor… Theres random stuff strown on my counters and dishes.
Why is doing anything I want to do still hard?