So, when I was psychotic I felt I was fighting evil forces controlled by people close to me. I spent two weeks roaming the streets at night, standing at ‘special’ corners on the street and not eating or drinking anything. Then, the police found me as I was reported missing, and then I was admitted to mental health unit under Section.
Right now things are much better mentally. I hear no voices, have no delusions, can think clearly but things are not perfect
In particular I feel there is a mental block - or call it ‘negative symptoms’. I want to do so much - to study, to work etc…but I just can’t get myself going - One day I might spend an hour reading (perhaps a Physics textbook), but the following day my motivation is totally gone.
It feels like someone drilled a hole through my skull, and took away a part of my brain - the part that allows you to function normally. I can’t function - I feel mentally blocked and stuck.
I used to see all sort of beauty in mathematics and science when I was at college, but now all I see is numbers and symbols on a piece of paper nothing more
I feel like I’m just a body with no emotion, drive or capability for intelligent thought.
Has anyone else experienced this? What helped you, if anything? Medications?
Recovery was not too great to me either. I dont actually get negative symptoms though anymore, and my wellbeing seems to get back on track mostly. It is not without its caveats though.
I have this same problem. No motivation at all. All I seem basically capable of doing is sitting on my phone in my room browsing instagram, youtube, and this site. I just have no drive to do anything. I wish I could get over this. I clean when I can and I keep up with my hygiene, but I am just not motivated to do anything else. I don’t know if its because I am on disability and have gotten lazy because of it, or maybe its the medication I am on, or maybe its the disorder.
I got my first job at the age of 30 this year, I hiked 110 miles in the Summer, I am going out on dates and have my life together mostly. You can get it back.
It’s the drugs for me. I’ve been better since I got on abilify and reduced to minimum dose. Now I can appreciate beauty a little bit again. Still not as much as before psychosis, but a little better.
Absolutely yes.
You are lucky you are not hearing voices. I feel dull, blunt, dim witted, slow, Paranoid, short term memory, apathetic —
My biggest fear is that old girlfriends and friends are using witchcraft (or magic) and is indirectly harming me with it…
I cant stop the voices how ever Im lucky enough to function normally.
It still sucks, this god awful illness took so much from me - I’m alone with it in my family so I’m the weird guy everyone is nice to but has little respect for…
Blehhhhh.
Yeah me too, I don’t have delusions anymore. I don’t have paranoia either. Mostly night time hallucinations and the feeling that something’s not quite right in my head. I can’t concentrate or focus like I used to.
When I feel bad I try to remind myself that life without delusions is a lot better and I should be grateful for it.