I’m having a hard time.
I want to love myself, but all I feel is hate.
I’m fat. I’m struggling to lose weight.
I want to quit my meds, for they are the problem, but they are also the solution, and without them I’d probably be homeless or in jail.
So I can’t quit.
How do I stop indulging my eating disorder and love myself for what I am now?
I’m having a hard time.
I strongly suggest that you start seeing a therapist specializing in ED.
This can help you.
You have a lot going for yourself, there is a lot to like.
Hang in there @wayward.
Thank you, @Wave
I really appreciate the kind words.
Most ED therapists are not covered by my insurance, unfortunately.
I also feel like I’m fat and not deserving of treatment…
I love myself cause im proud how gentle i am for myself. I dont neglect my physical body. I buy it what it needs. I take care of it like it is my baby. I guess i dont love myself but i love my physical body. I only think nice things about it. Cause it has taken care of me
Listen to your body’s true needs then go from there. MUCH easier said then done. And even then I guess its not easy
I try to listen but still end up being disordered
Maybe you can see a specialist once a month and pay out of your pocket?
Would this be too much?
It’s really worth trying.
Having an ED is pretty damaging unless it’s treated and managed.
I love myself by eating good food, exercising most days and meditating everyday, and playing my digital piano most days, taking hot baths once a week, or as needed, reading most days, getting enough sleep, and socializing.
My past nine weeks Ive been trying too and then the past two weeks were not great. I think we just gotta not give up and then eventually we get there all the way
Today, I didn’t count calories, I just ate when I was hungry.
I still feel like restricting, though.
Yea thats all that matters that you are trying
I think different methods suit different people for weight loss.
Some people can do it by eating anything when they are hungry but just watching portion size.
But for me I gotta do a certain routine and certain food. Its kind of strict but its got to do with a hormonal condition that I have that makes it harrder to lose weight and easier to gain weight so for that reason Ive go to be stricter.
Whatevr works best for you.
I try to remember to take and baby myself when I get icky sicky.coming down with the flu and a migraine. Without getting into it, I wasn’t "taken care of " when I was young so this is a learning process.
I have a question if anyone can answer it: I keep getting feelings of low blood sugar—I feel weak, shaky, light-headed, and ravenous.
I’ll be getting my blood tested, but I was wondering if my medications are to blame.
I take lithium, Lexapro, Clozaril, Latuda.
You can love yourself by knowing that nature has a plan for each of us. You will be fine - stay strong.
Low blood sugar is a sign that you are not eating enough or skipping meals.
I’m really nervous to do the blood test my doctor gave me, for fasting blood sugar and A1C
I think I may be developing a sugar problem; this low blood sugar thing happens a lot to me.
I agree about seeing a therapist. They can hopefully help you with eating, but more than that, they can help you see yourself as the valuable, worthwhile person that you are.
Don’t hate yourself, you look really nice and healthy. If you eat too much it’s because of your meds, my meds produces weight gain also, I’m leaving all my meds with no problem, maybe you need to learn to cope with your delusions with low doses of meds but you need to talk that with your psychiatrist. Maybe I could help you with your delusions (mine were about the CIA and spirits) but now I’m fine, I’m just like a normal guy again
You need to embrace your flaws, don’t be too harsh on yourself.