The skulls are sooo cool. I love symbolism in art. I’m glad you have so many different outlets! You seem like you do so much in your life and I’m jealous, haha. I often feel like I can only do the bare minimum expected of a college student.
My drawing was meant to be a kind of genderless creature since I’m ambivalent to gender. (Not that I identify as anything else I’m totally comfortable being a girl, but in my dreams I seem to swap pretty evenly between male and female forms) The string attached to my neck that I’m holding is supposed to show that my head’s like a balloon and is always floating away so I have to keep a tight grip on it. The third eye is for things I see that others don’t. The gunk/spikes in the middle is there because that’s generally where my emotional pain is localized. Hand over mouth because I keep quiet about what I go through and don’t tell any friends or family for fear of being misunderstood/not believed. Hand over crotch because deeply insecure and confused over sexuality. The weights are reality, which keep me grounded but also trapped. I (tried, lol) to make the legs broken, because during episodes, functioning in day to day feels like walking on broken legs.
The demon, butterfly and horn represent the good/bad elements of the psychosis. (Butterfly=hope, fantasy, imagination, good voices, Demon=paranoia, delusions, bad voices,)The little man standing on my weight with the bullhorn (compared to the psychosis, which speaks through a musical instrument, thus is more appealing than harsh bullhorn) is life, half business and serious and half disorganized and messy, holding an infinite to-do list and shouting at me to get it done.
Where am I going is just a question I constantly ask myself, the future always looms over my head, as does the future of my mental/emotional health, wondering if it’ll ever completely stop being weird. It’s filled with question marks because I’m filled with questions that never seem to run out, haha.
Like I said, I like symbolic art, heh. Just wish I could draw better…