It’s getting to the point that the nurses are going to restrain me and inject me. I’m so afraid that the aps are laced with mind controlling substances and with their aerials they are going to control my actions to get me to hurt or murder someone to imprison me to discredit me make me look crazy or kill meand hide me from the world because when I’m 25 I’m going to be God and I know secrets about them they don’t want me to share.
Last night I escaped from hospital and I tried to cut the hands off at the department store. Then someone found me and rang the police.
I’m so disappointed the bones are not broken and I didn’t cut the hands off. Sorry guys just needed to vent I’m so upset.
These people are trying to help you. If you cooperate you will not be feeling the way you are feeling in this thread. Personally, my recovery got a lot better when I stopped fighting the people who were trying to help me and I just let them do their job. It was a turning point in my recovery. But I understand some of what you are going through. I’m not saying I believe what you are writing, what I understand is that you must be frightened and your illness is intruding in your life in a big way. I understand that this stuff is real to you. Medication can help you with this.
I was so sick of being tormented by demons that eventually I just learned to suck it up and go on them when I needed to. It gets to a point where you can’t take it anymore. Then I go on the antipsychotic until I can’t take it anymore lol.
The police took my hands about a year ago and inserted memories of an alien abduction but then I had memories of the surgery. They don’t look like my hands. They did it because I know secrets about the shadow government and the police. Also jack the programmer told me that he has delegated me as God but not till I’m 25.
Sorry guys don’t ask me to preform miracles when I’m 25 because I have to save the simulation from destruction by the government
Who’s helping you? Who’s your support? Do you have someone to talk to about this stuff in real life?
Because I’ve seen these forums help many people but having someone in real life to talk about problems helps too.
@princess sounds like hospital is exactly where you need to be right now, if you find yourself having thoughts like this, you need to tell someone there immediately and if you feel like you want to run away, then tell someone so they can stop you. I’m so scared you’ll do permenant damage to yourself, everyone on this forum cares about you,
And you know you can turn to any of us and we will try our best to help you out of your delusions. Just remember you are loved and it’s just the illness, keep taking the medicine as it will help you. All the love in the world ️
I can tell you that, people here are ranting about olanzapine and how they gain dozens of kgs on it
but in the 3 weeks I am on it I actually lost weight.
It is not a given that you will suffer side effects, you might get clinical benefits without suffering side effects at all.
And if the med is not effective, or causes intolerable side effects you can always quit and perhaps try a different
medication.
the last time i went to the hospital i had the belief that they were going to kill me somehow and i was going straight to hell. the other option i had was to stay home and risk being mind controlled to hurt my family. i just took a leap of faith that going back on my meds would help and it did. Good luck. Get on the medication. it wont make anything bad happen. you will feel better.
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