Horrible day today

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Woke up feeling so defeated from yesterday.

My dog didn’t want to come inside. So i had to bring him in by force.

By that time I shed a lot of blood due to menstruation so I became very ill. I slept until 2pm.

I woke up, had a small grain drink thingy (Korean grain and milk drink) but continued to spiral into self hatred. Thought about self harm but didn’t do so

And then the self hatred exploded and I started to slam the keyboards and swore at myself in anger. I continued to shed a lot of blood so I had to take iron pills and was coughing. I passed out and slept.

I woke up feeling defeated.
I’m feeling really dizzy and ill and dehydrated and worn out

I just want life to take its course on me now.
I’m exhausted.

Now i am going to sleep while defeated.

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Are you on an AD?

I feel I can’t say anything to offer encouragement, except Google images of the disabled, look at people that are making it, and are so inspiring.

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on the other hand, friend, maybe that wasn’t the best advice.

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If you are having heavy bleeding during your cycle you might have fibroids. Maybe your blood count is low. I would see your obgyn.

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I have PCOS according to the OBGYN.
I think I just struggle more due to my MD being combined with that.

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I did too. I had to have a hysterectomy because my cells were pre cancerous. But I still get ovarian cysts.

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