i feel im getting stuck in my hole again mentally i am drained. yet for no reason. nights are hard again. my thoughts wizz around my head saying im pathetic and so on. i am so very tired yet need not sleep but a bit of sanity
I’ve been feeling it… that racing mind when the body has nothing left… that lack of sleep and really sneak up on you. Sorry to say… but the sanity comes with the sleep.
It’s sad to see you having a hard time and waking up to bad days… I do hope you can find some ideas on how to let your mind rest and recharge.
As far as the voices saying your pathetic… I hope you know… you’re not. You are a person fighting this illness and getting through your day the best way you can… that is no easy task. I hope you feel better soon.
Maybe look into some sleeping ideas… sleep hygiene, relaxation tapes… no caffeine, maybe talk to your doc for some ideas.
I’m rooting for you.
thank you for your reply 
i am trying to carry on as best i can. but my head is soo full if you know what i mean
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I’m in that spin as well… only with a twist.
My body feels 100 years old… beaten and sore. Every movement reminds me of a muscle that I didn’t know I had…
But my mind is spinning out into the cosmos… and it’s wave after wave of epiphany and euphoria. I’ve been getting a bit emphatic about love, peace and the universe.
but then again… I’m also stuck home with the flu and a fever… My sleep pattern is all whacked out and I’m still burning up a bit… though not as bad as the other day.
Trying to keep a hold of the ground and realize it’s the fever and the lack of sleep and the recent shock to the system… It’s not a sign… just flu.
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the worse bit for me right now is what ever i do my thoughts pick at it and says im wrong or what other. like what other people are thinking i can read there thoughts. or repeatly ‘your pathetic, horribe , waste of time for others’ ad you can imagine its taking its toll now. just want peace and quiet more than anything right now
I used to think mine was sonic hearing… that all the negativity that was in me… was actually what the neighbors were saying and I could hear them…
I have a feeling you might be going through that split logic… I knew deep down I couldn’t hear other peoples thoughts or hear them from miles away, but I still feel like I can.
It’s hard sorting it out… wishing you the strength to fight it and feel better.
I go riding my bicycle when my thoughts are too much, when I ride my bicycle I am sometimes quite thoughtless, but feel great.
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I walk the dog. Sometimes he doesn’t want long walks and I have to drag him half way. He is old. But go walking without a dog is much harder. Voices tell me ppl I meet are murderers and rapists. It feels safe to have a dog.
**Hi Wizzer~
Would a fan help when you got to bed? Or a nature cd?
I hope things quiet down for you OO
**J…hope you get rid of that flu bug soon!
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