He told me to go all the way

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It hurt to much.

Alone with the gods.

And the nights flame with fire.

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I don’t like this, Pansdisease. Pllease don’t “go all the way”. Stay here with us. We love you. We are your friends. We want you here with us. Get help. Please call your doctor, Pansdisease, please! Your feelings are not permanent. They will pass with time and you will feel good again. Take it from me. I know. No one was more suicidal than I was for many years. It passed. Now, I am the happiest woman in the world. You can be the happiest man in the world. Schizophrenia symptoms come and go. They are not forever. They are NOT! You will get better over time. I was the most miserable schizophrenic for years and years. I was also depressed and suicidal over it. Guess what? It all passed. It can and will pass for you too. God bless my dear man. I will pray for you.

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@loveaguilarg. The video Pans posted is a reading of the poem “Roll the Dice” by Charles Bukowski

Roll the Dice

if you’re going to try, go all the
way.
otherwise, don’t even start.
if you’re going to try, go all the
way.
this could mean losing girlfriends,
wives, relatives, jobs and
maybe your mind.
go all the way.
it could mean not eating for 3 or 4 days.
it could mean freezing on a
park bench.
it could mean jail,
it could mean derision,
mockery,
isolation.
isolation is the gift,
all the others are a test of your
endurance, of
how much you really want to
do it.
and you’ll do it
despite rejection and the worst odds
and it will be better than
anything else
you can imagine.
if you’re going to try,
go all the way.
there is no other feeling like
that.
you will be alone with the gods
and the nights will flame with
fire.
do it, do it, do it.
do it.
all the way
all the way.
you will ride life straight to
perfect laughter, its
the only good fight
there is.

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I’m sorry Pansdisease and Moonbeam. My mistake and misunderstanding. Blame my extreme hard of hearing. Had it all of my life. I was never able to figure out a lyric unless it were written out. Thanks.

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No problem @loveaguilarg i had to look it up on google after listening to the video. I just didn’t want you to worry so I thought I’d share what I found.