I was very ill with sz my entire life. I’ve been stable finally for about 2 years now if I live a very low key life.
But the problem is I can see all of life’s pleasures that I’ve missed out on that all of my peers have and are enjoying. They have done are doing so much in life.
All while I got to sit at home and rot because of sz. Sit at home preoccupied with delusions/paranoia/voices, anxiety, hospitals and meds. And I can’t even talk about it to anyone because no one wants to hear it because it’s taboo (and no one can possibly relate). I feel very low.
Children, fur babies, perfect marriages, large expensive homes, fancy vehicles, advanced careers and they make a great salary, advanced college educations, traveling the world, active minds, very busy schedules lives, and so onnnnnnnnnn
I don’t think that’s a very helpful statement. I’m sorry. Sometimes drs don’t have the best bedside manners. I wish I could help you with knowing how to not spend all day in bed/in a recliner chair but I don’t and I’m stuck there too.
Schiz has ruined my education my career and personal life and it continues to torment me but now I have a weird foot pain that seems to flare up when I’m out and when I’m anxious it’s getting difficult to handle
Really? That’s unreal. I don’t know how it works where you live. Is there any way though that you can request a new dr? I wonder if a fresh set of eyes would help you not have to be stuck in bed all day.
I requested a new pdoc and she prescribed me Clozapine. I did the heart tests and she gave me blood test paper but didn’t do it, told her I don’t want Clozapine. I don’t want weekly blood tests and weight gain. Idk why she thinks Clozapine is best for negative symptoms i dont believe her
I appreciate the perspective. Most people only talk about the good and brag I’ve encountered. I was socializing last night and people were bragging non stop to my face about everything good. I felt very small.