im controlled like everybody else is. i have actually experienced the control where i was made to look at things, bookshelves with books of meaningful titles, which had strong co-relations to the things i was made to think at the time. so i was like thinking about heaven and hell and was made to look at a bookshelf and there was a book with fire as its cover. or i was made to think of who i will meet and then i was made to open a book and the page directly opens and shows a certain picture which totally is related to the thoughts. sounds incredibly unlikely? yeah thats what it was for sure.
Doctors would tell you that youâre delusional, but you probably know that. I donât know if something controlled you or not. Maybe. Sounds strange to me, but I have a few strange beliefs too. But thinking everyone around you is also controlled is definitely a delusion. I have never been controlled like that and Iâm positive almost none of the people you think were controlled would say they were. It just doesnât make sense. If this sort of thing happened everyone would know about it.
the psychiatrist i met never told me i was delusional. she told me that its a âpossible worldviewâ and that there are many worldviews. i think she thought i was delusional but she never told me straight forward. she was an atheist naturalist herself. i think the stuff she learned at uni has made her very confident that anything god-related is just hogwash.
but the control was very evident when one woman who i was in the psychward with was totally stressed the whole time and used to be pissed. then suddenly she had teary eyes and a smile from seeing me for some reason, when the conversation turned to be about me. and at the same time that morning (before the incident) the voices turned to be neutral and not be about hellfire and death anymore.
If you really think that everyone around you have been controlled then you should ask them if they were at some point controlled. It stands to reason that if you can notice that you have been controlled from the outside, then so can other people.
thats why its such a strange world of pretending. i know that god is in control but he is very deceitful, because 99.99% of religions are all lies implanted by him. People dont need to believe in him or be respectful to him. He is a very weird character and constantly makes fun of me and himself. He/She/It sounds very much like some sort of âYoutube Atheistâ if you know what i mean. Very cheap comical stuff, nothing serious.
Why all these lies and this suffering? I have no idea. And honestly i much more prefered to be a christian before having these sort of weird âschizophrenic delusionsâ or whatever you want to label those. He talks both in a male and a female voice.
So⌠to sum it up⌠Iâm wrong because you somehow know that god is behind all of this, and he is making everyone lie to you. That is to say that he, for some reason, does not care much about other people but you, so he makes them all into drones that are remotely controlled by him to make your life living hell. Sounds right?
Not trying to make fun of you by the way⌠Just trying to understand what you are actually talking aboutâŚ
Nope. Its just some days i am pissed with my life and having achieved basically nothing. Other days i dont even care (such as today). I blame it on god because i now know that it is his will to see me suffer like this. Before the schizophrenia i didnt even care about how my life went, i just lived it. Although i was always pissed with how much of rejection and social frustration (inwardly, never expressing it) i had to live with.
Okay⌠still donât quite understand where control of other people fits into this picture.
Also, have you considered the possibility that you being pissed off all the time could show to other people in ways that are different from you expressing it directly? E.g. body language, the way you talk, etc. Because I find that when I am angry, other people can usually tell that something is off with me. Body language and speech can communicate a lot more than what you express directly.
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Believe it or not i never felt anger in my entire life. I fought with a couple of guys when i was younger but never because i was angry with them. It just seemed to be the right thing to do to protect my honor, not emotionally driven by anger.
I also dont think people see anything in my behaivor that would make them not want to be a friend of mine. I just dont know, perhaps i never tried to establish a friendship myself? You know what i mean? I never made the first step to go play sports. Or go out eating or anything. I just let it all come to me instead. But i also feel really weird in proposing to go out with somebody if that person never shows interest in going out themselves. I had lots of âbuddiesâ who i used to hang out with in school but we never were friends. with girls its a totally different story. while when i was younger some girls were interested, later on it was like i was some kind of 9-headed monster and they were all ignoring me from the get go. if i initiated to talk to them about the subjects in school they all were very quiet and very seldom exchanged a word with me even while i was asking them simple questions about school. the few girls that talked with me had a boyfriend already. there was absolutely no reason why they would behave in this manner. and even when you realize that everything is controlled, then god couldve made it so that there were 10 single girls in my class that were all interested in me from the start. is it impossible? (there were girls interested in me without any reason before) no, instead he made them either have boyfriends or made them uninterested in me or be really shut-ins who dont want to talk (because they think youre hitting on them or whatever).
anyway⌠you can really easily notice the âcontrol of peopleâ when people suddenly start talking about topics that you have been pondering yourself for so long out of the blue. this i too believe is just a sign that the âsubconcious mindâ is absolutely led to behave a certain way. there is no way those people would start talking about those topics because those things were not in their interest. like a person who has no interest in religion at all starts talking about the trinity very passionately or whatever. totally fun to witness.
I get that, since psychosis. Donât get it anymore, but when I was heavily psychotic I understood why they only need belief. Belief is than the ultimate proof of Godâs existence.
I donât see any logic in it besides deluded thinking. But I respect.
did you provide proof for the existence of the christian god?
Iâve seen you angry on this site. Why did you change your username? Is danddolo still banned?
And @Patrick Iâve never been banned from forums. I got banned from IRC chatrooms when I was a kid because we used to troll take overs to certain channels and then ban everyone, then someone would do the same to us. Not because of behaviour but for take overs. âThis is my channel nowâ equivalent of derrailing threads nowadays.
nope never was. i may have said some stuff but i didnt feel anger.
the other name got deleted cause i didnt like the name anymore. as i said its connected to a very very bad curseword.
how have you been doing this month?
Iâm good thank you.
ive been here for like 3 days but ive noticed you arent as active as you used to. something devouring your spare time now?
Yeah I went back to college.
hows the driving license doing?
I feel the judgment was upon our own teen years. Not meant as a mock to all teens. There are some teens that are better off than I in maturity
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I spent 10 years learning a specific code language that I found hidden within the KJV Bible. I became so familiar with it that I knew what I would find in code language before I even had looked. Below is one of my code web pages. Once there, click on the flashing words 
. Be sure your audio is on.
Oh, I forgot to mention, I found out who I am as well.
But since no one âbelievedâ my words, the loss to mankind was bigger than the universe itself.
http://www.outersecrets.com/real/the_full_intro.htm
Go to the above web site and click on and download and then play, âTHE FULL INTROâ.
So since everyone on the entire planet immediately thought that what truth I revealed was a load of crap, the loss to mankind was infinite. And you idiots donât take that seriously. You idiots, you idiots, you idiotsâŚ
But not to worry. Since you threw an eternal paradise out the window, you will never know of it. So carry on with your trivial existence as usual.
Have a nice day !