I hate myself so much and I wish I didn’t. I hate the fact I’m living and using oxygen. I’m more heartbroken by the kids who have nothing in Africa and I have stuff like food etc. Sickens me… everyday I wake up thinking about suicide and spend the remainder of the day playing it out. I have a constant urge whenever I’m awake to peel the skin off my body and scrape the skin off.
It is all I can think about harming myself and getting ready for hanging myself. My thoughts are plagued by demons and I’m held on by a thread. I’m tired of trying it’s a everyday battle to keep from harming myself.
I feel like I’m supposed to burn in hell and flames it’s where I’ll be at peace
Did you tell your pdoc about those thoughts and urges?
You shouldn’t hate yourself, you can use the food you eat to do good things, (working, volunteering…) even your presence in this forum is helping many people.
I’ve often felt the same way about myself, comparing my situation to those in less favorable conditions. Idk what to say. It sucks that life isn’t fair, but we all have our struggles, and I think they tend to scale with the quality of our lives.
Please don’t hurt yourself. I like you and would miss your presence here.
