Today…
I hate me I hate me I hate me.
I detest me.
I despise me
I loathe me
I disgust myself…
I’m so ashamed
I don’t know how to be true to myself today
In case anyone is wondering 
I can’t control my eating today.
The something th time in my life 
I want to be healthy
I don’t need any responses I just needed to vent.
HOW DISAPPOINTED I AM IN MYSELF.
UNLESS you feel disappointed in yourself I’d love to hear.
On a positive note
I am an amazing and wonderful person 
‘If you hurt me then your only hurting yourself, but wait I love myself then that’s the deal now we looking back at it yeahhh’
It is OK to hate people it makes me feel better.
Hate gets so much bad press.
Sometimes hate is necessary
It’s stupid to say hate is bad. Hate exists for a reason.
I hate myself too. Over the past couple of days I have eaten a couple of big boxes of these “oatmeal rounds”. They’re very sweet. I’m amazed I haven’t gotten type II diabetes the way I eat sweets.
Chill it’s not that bad, you just ate some stuff. I’m on an amphetamine comedown :S… Dissapointed in myself as well. I even ordered more 
@Ozzyskits Feels like I’m throwing my chances at life away man. I’m stable now and then I start f*ing up. To much idle time. To little satisfaction out of life… I gotta find a women. Soon I will start a full time course so that’s positive at least. Funny the dude I speeded with yesterday is called ozzy as well
@Raelyn_Fenn It’s okay to hate yourself, acceptance is step one towards loving yourself 
@Marbles haha that’s actually hes name? Hectic. I just use it on here becuase I’m australian. Having a girlfriend is lovely and amazing but its not a cure-all as I’m sure you know. Yeah I get so sick of the negative symptoms of sza so occasionally I dabble to combat that side of things. Don’t worry brother I’m sure you’ll find your way!
Thanks Marbles. It was just a moment of self hate. I’m just self disappointed now and concerned for my health but hopefully it’s all good.
I don’t actually hate anyone for the record, don’t want to send out the wrong vibe on a forum full of vulnerable people too.
Aw, no worries it’s OK.
That’s great you didn’t get diabetes. Nice one. Processed food is madly addictive to me too
@Marbles wishing you luck with your addiction. I hope you get to a point where you feel at peace and don’t need the amphetamines for a high.
Thanks Raelyn
I’m hoping you don’t really hate yourself. You are a good person who is kind and compassionate.
Thankyou Pianogal. It was very temporary feeling. But it has gone now.
Hope you’re well
