I feel like im slowly give up my creative endeavours tbh i judt feel too tired to do it now
Not me. I have doubled down and I am hitting it like a mutha@#$%.
@Ninjastar will verify that I have cranked up to b@d@$$ level this year.
Do you have the energy to focus on art thoug
Yes and no. Getting up and out the door is hell on earth some days. Once I get going I can usually keep going. I have discovered that the feeling of having no energy is partly a delusion. I feel like I have no energy but when I push past that it turns out I do. Now I’m in the habit of pushing myself every day. Building habits is the best way to push back.
I still have pretty good motivation to do creative stuff. Some days Its hard to get motivated but it comes in waves. I wouldn’t have anything to do if I wasn’t a creative
Are you having trouble with it?
Yes and no, mostly yes.
It’s getting moving which is the hardest part for me. I’ve found that breaking things down into smaller more manageable tasks gets me going and then I have energy to push on through and can do a whole day if I have time. Getting older has made me start thinking “if not now then never”.
Yeah i am tbh. My skills just arent up to scratch anymore and i cant think of any original ideas
My creative endeavor is Brazilian jiu-jitsu and it has improved.
Teaching class is one of the main times my voice leaves me alone
@Everybody what does everyone do if you dont mind me asking
My dose of antipsychotic is too high for creative stuff. I was much more energetic on 2mg rexulti, currently on 3mg.
This evening I am the volunteer event photographer for our local Chamber of Commerce. Annual awards. Just waiting for the event to get rolling.
I worked from 15 to 25, got DXd at 21, went on disability at 25.
I’m 33 now, I’ve worked only twice since going on disability and that was only for a few months.
Been stable for a while now so I’m looking for a job nowadays.
I was a cashier/sandwich maker, dishwasher, lifeguard, landscaper, shipper/receiver, quality assurance technician, general labourer, delivery driver and property maintenance labourer.
Why don’t you use your illness for creativity?
Yea I’m a lost cause lol.
I gave up piano and guitar.
Very quickly too.
If I was capable, I would have liked it very much so lol
Do you have a different hobby?
Commerical insurance broker specializing in coverage for medium to large sized fleets.
Not really. Im trying to find new ones that dont involve too much thinking or creativity but its very hard
I’ve been symptomatic for a while now. At first I did completely give it up out of exhaustion. Now I think from desperation I’ve moved to a smaller scale at least for now. Instead of the larger projects, I’ve been doing small scale studies for when I do feel better.
I was making a living writing crime novels, poetry and scripts for radio plays, and had some grants from the state.
Now my novels get rejected from the publishing houses, but that doesn’t stop me from writing novels. When I have written a novel, I send it to a publisher, and have a bad day when it gets rejected, but that’s all.
I don’t think it’s due to my schizophrenia or psychosis, but just a matter of my personal taste that doesn’t match the public anymore.