I went to two drive-thru fast food joints. And walked over to Walgreen’s. AND walked two laps around my whole apartment complex. I’ll just keep the delusions to a minimum. But do you feel that people think you come free? No one really bugged me on one level. But I felt like on another level people are teeing off on me because I am a little unsure of myself. I actually live in a nice neighborhood. Maybe people were ACTUALLY trying to be nice? And I read them wrong? I should have leaned all this in sixth grade! Or high school. I guess I have to adjust and put a smile on my face. It’s doable. Not everybody is bad I guess.
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good for you man. I hate it when stranger look at me. Guess it’s part of being schizo. Most people really don’t care about what’s going on with other people. They are typically nice when approached where I come from. Don’t know about real city folk though. I think your over thinking things dude.
Keep it real man.
Quite possibly. When someone looks at me I consider it a threat or a challenge. But it isn’t, everybody looks at everybody else.
Do you feel like you are threatening or challenging people when you look at them?
When I was walking in the neighborhood, I’d like to say “hello, nice weather!” to the people I come across. But now I realized some of them might not like to be bothered. So I should only do this to my neighbors.
Yes, I do. I see everything as life or death! I am going to try to get along with my neighbors. I can be friendly.
Well dude try and change that. It’s natural to think that everyone is just like you, but in my experience most people are more on the inviting side.
I feel like I’m watched when I go outside. I have to walk the dog so I have to go outside. Maybe it is good. Other I would isolate and hide myself. When the feeling of being watched creeps up on me I try to use logic to settle the thoughts and feelings. Most people don’t care about anything but what is just in front of them.
Yesterday I say 4 people turn around and watch me. That made me nervous. But maybe they looked at my dog. Propably that.
Thats cool you got out.
I plan on going on bike rides when I fix my bike.
I use to feel like everyone is staring at me when I ride my bike so at first I would be so anxious id be soaked in sweat and hyperventilating.
Its sad I think anxiety and embarrassment keeps a lot of people from riding bike.
Now that im comfortable I see normal people that are like I was before they get use to it.
I honestly think everyone to some degree is like that in public.
But they forget about it whereas we can dwell on it all day.
When I have to take the garbage out I just tie it up tight so it doesn’t smell and put It off a couple of days because I have to go across the parking lot to the dumpster and I feel like people watching out the windows and I dwell on that all day.
Yeah, that sucks.You can try what I try: Well, if they want to look then put on a show. I realize that so-called “normal people” trip out on other people too. Not everybody knows where to look or who to pay attention too. Sometimes, I actually WANT attention. I’ve been out since around 10:30 pm. It’s now 1:11Am. Drove all over. Nothing happened except a few people tried to scare me. I like being out late at night.
You can do it,just adjust and good luck!!
Thank you. …
I don’t know how it is in the Bay Area now, but when I lived there people didn’t walk much, so you were immediately suspect or in the way when walking. I used to walk a few blocks to work, part of it down El Camino Real and I used to think I was always in the way or out of place.
This was when I was barely prodromal. I think everyone feels that way when they walk a bit.
It’s petty safe to walk in my neighborhood. I walk around by myself at all hours of the night and nothing has happened to me yet. Knock on wood. But anyone who is out at this time of the morning is automatically suspect to me.
Yeah I like riding my bike around town after 3am and before 8am when everyone is asleep its real peaceful.
I imagine that all the negative vibes that people put out go to sleep with them.
From 12:00 am to 5:00 am is my favorite time to go out in my car or to walk around the neighborhood. But then the next day is wasted while I sleep.
I always thought that people as a whole were neither bad nor good. They’re as nice to you as they can afford to be, and they don’t owe you anything else. Some people are bad, but they’re not representative of everyone.
I could agree with that.