My dad and I got into a huge fight where it became a physical fight and I don’t want to go to much into that but basically he kicked me out immediately after the fight. I didn’t feel safe after he put his hands on me so I had barely any time to grab my things and go. Sleeping in my car and hotel was horrible. Constantly feeling like I was gonna get killed. It’s been a month.
My dog was recently diagnosed with a disease that could end his life soon and treatment is very expensive…my dog is everything to me my best friend and now I can’t be with him or see him or help him.
Trying to live with my mom now in her tiny apartment sleeping on the floor but it’s not working well. I’m completely broke, no money…the traffic here is so bad I can barely drive anywhere and I can’t focus.
I’m hearing voices constantly telling me to do things…I’m paranoid I feel like I’m gonna get killed. I’m depressed…I just miss my dog. And my bed…
I think it’s a really chaotic time for you right now and that fight with your dad made your symptoms flare up. I think you should wait until the shock of that dies down and you become more stable again and then maybe look into starting a new life for yourself. (Getting a job, possibly moving out, etc, if that’s possible for you)
This is just a bad stressful time. It won’t always be this way. Good luck.
I’m sorry that you are going through a rough time @EmilyTheStrange.
Is there any way you can go back home?
I mean when it’s safe.
Try talking to your father?
I really don’t know your situation.
@Ninjastar yeah my mom is being very supportive, but that’s because she hates my dad too
@Mountainman I tried to get money from them and they said they couldn’t help for atleast two months until I get my ssi straightened out and then increased to pay to live where I’m at
i’m sorry, that is terrible. if someone threatens me with harm or tries to hurt me i never trust that person again. my brother use to be physically and emotionally abusive. he threatened to kill me once because i stayed at a friends house for a week and didn’t leave my school laptop there for him to get on facebook. i hope you can stay with your mom. i can’t live with my brother anymore and my parents don’t understand that they think its just a sibling thing.
I thought I was going to kill myself in that hotel room…I had a plan and I hurt myself some too and I felt some peace because I was like I won’t have to deal with this horrible life anymore…I should have done it then but idk why the ■■■■ I didn’t I feel stupid for not doing it
@EmilyTheStrange
If your Mom is being supportive then it might be a good idea to stay there until you sort things through.
Living on the streets is unsafe and downright dangerous.
I will pray for you.
I guess I’m like wave in that I wonder if you can work things out with your dad. Of course I don’t know the extent on how he got violent. If you have your mom supporting you I guess that is cool. Try the getting a job and being self reliant thing if you can. Maybe you need a med change of something. I get super paranoid too if I am not taking my meds.
Yeah I just don’t think moving back would be an option especially because my dad and I hate each other and it was a really toxic environment to live in…I want to work but I have trouble getting stable.
I guess I’m different in that regard. I’ve had people threaten to beat me up or kill me. I just shrug it off. I hallucinate someone trying to kill me all the time. I’m used to it. I get scared though during my episodes usually. It almost seems like you have no control over it. Also have been on my deathbed before. If you are religious it is not such a big deal.
i was just thinking could someone go with you to get your dog? that way you aren’t alone? when i moved out i left my rabbit and my birds at my parents house and i wanted to go back and get them but before i could my brother and parents sold them.
Possibly…that would be a good idea but I can’t afford to take care of him completely and my mom has a dog already here. This is a good thought though @cbbrown I’m going to think more about this
Change is inevitable. You just got hit with an awful lot of change all at once. Death is also inevitable. Brace yourself to lose your dog. Maybe you can warm up to your Mom’s dog. Sorry, Wave, I meant this message to go to Emily.
