I was having a pretty good day, stayed home all day due to icee storm, listened to my favorite genres of music, had a few cups of coffee, ignored every voice that came at me but now I can’t help but to feel alone and scared. I don’t know what I’m scared about I just do. My anxiety is starting to act up I don’t know what to do!
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Do you have any valium?
No I have hydroxzine for emergency but soon will be taking all my meds…it’s time
Maybe quick exercise can help to get ur heart rate going. But me giving anyone that advice is hypocritical since I haven’t exercised in a while. Also hot showers help me. I have a speaker in my bathroom so it helps make taking showers painless. Isolation is tricky. One second i’ll feel at peace with myself the next complete chaos and madness without anyone to talk to.
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Hopefully taking your meds will help. Hope you feel better.
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Yeah I just took the hot shower I also have a speaker and put my favorite playlist on. I’ve kinda isolated myself the last 3 hours
Well you have us to talk to at the very least. And it might help to get some fresh air real quick. I vape but sometimes i pretend like its a cigarette and i force myself outside to vape
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Yeah I haven’t had a cigarette in a while maybe that will help. How are you feeling? I saw your last post about substance
Ok i guess. I played some video games and that helped. I still haven’t talked to anyone in person besides my pdoc. Maybe a week, idk. Ive lost count of how long I’ve been isolated for. Im in debt with my credit card right now from being fired and not having any income. Though i talked with my therapist about it and he asked “are you ready for a job?” That was really refreshing to hear actually. Kind of personal but whatever. The good news is that I’ve been regularly taking zyprexa for the past week and thats helped. Especially with appetite cause I’m 6’6” at around 170 so i have the gift of “unlimited gluttony.” I read however that even someone tall and lanky that can eat anything also can run into problems. Like even if i didn’t gain a lot id still feel like crap eating hamburgers every meal
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That’s good my mom pushes me out the house when I isolate myself. You don’t have any family that could help you with that? I’m jobless as well got fired from mine a year ago. My therapist still calls it a success story
Im in the MST region. I came cause of school. Now ive gotten so set up that im kind of stuck here. My parents are EST
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Did you take the meds? Sometimes just thinking it out helps me to settle down if I am not too far gone. I hope you can still salvage the day.
It is nice that your mom tries to keep you active, annoying as I’m sure it can be sometimes. I think it’s weird that your therapist thinks getting fired is a success story. How does that work? Wouldn’t getting on meds and recovering enough to work again, getting a new job, and succeeding in it be a success story?
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Makes sense, do you feel like someday you’ll get back to work? I don’t know if I can…I guess you can say I am afraid
YeAh I took them already I took @KingKazuma advice and came outside for some air and a few smokes. My mom is a great supporter through my recovery my therapist honestly I don’t even know what he meant
I don’t know. My last job turned me off to the idea of working for or with people. I would like to get a degree at some point though. But idk if thats even feasible at this point. Volunteer work would be nice
I want a degree as well but I have a hard time focusing. And I ate crowded areas or having to meet new ppl. I volunteer at my dads elementary school sometimes for kids that also have mental health problems it sometimes helps. I honestly want to be a paramedic but I don’t know if that would ever happen
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You always have the option of online degrees nowadays. There are real, accredited schools that offer degrees. Some affordable ones are available at University of Illinois, University of Massachusetts, Texas A&M, and many schools in Georgia. There are so many good schools out there; you don’t have to leave the house anymore!
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Yeah but isn’t online classes much more difficult then actual classes
It’s definitely possible. But it would take all the effort everyday to keep up the mask and put emt work over mental work. Its hard for me to lie. I’ve heard a pretty messed up story about someone with schizoaffective disorder becoming an emt. Im not trying to discourage you from pursuing because it definitely is possible. Just takes time and lots of effort
I want to be an EMT it’s a dream not something I’m expecting to actually happen. I can barely hold a job. Let alone even get one.