Yesterday was the worst day in my life

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I was in deep psychosis.
I am scared. I’m gonna call my psychiatrist

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Yeah call them and don’t hesitate going to urgent care too

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Hey mate. How did you go? I know your coming down on some meds but it’s not good to struggle. Let us know how you go with your shrink. Hope you get in right away.

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Yesterday I was outside of my self.
I couldn’t control my mind.
My mind didn’t fit my skull.
I had no boundaries or limits.
I had a divine revelation turned into nightmare.
Both euphoria and terror.
Today I called my psychiatrist and he said I should take benzos all day long, and he increased clozapine

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Are you a smoker? usually when this sort of thing happens I double my smoking, so have you noticed your smoking more?

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Yes, when I have anxiety I smoke more

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3hours to go and I can have a smoke, oh the joys of working and not being able to smoke when you want

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I’m sorry to hear that @Om_Sadasiva! Glad to hear that you were able to get in touch with your pdoc. Hopefully you’ll feel better soon.

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That’s a problem. Doesn’t your job distract you so that you forget about smoking?

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Not on Sundays when I do a whole lot of nothing. I had three calls and a chat the whole day and been at work a whole six hours with an hours lunch, got three more hours to go

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Three hours? Ok, I hope they’ll pass easily

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In terms of actual work I have spent maby 40 minutes today actually working. Its like this for everyone working in a specialist supervisory role on a Sunday. Sometimes I do cloud based computing courses, through AWS training but not in the mood to think today

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I find closing your eyes and sitting outside in the sunlight that you see the rays going through the eyelids helps with visual hallucinations and with disorganised thinking aswell because all your mind can focus on is the sunlight

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Wow I just slept for 8.30 minutes bur woke up after 4.35, quite annoying.

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I’m sorry you’re having trouble hang in there and hope your pdoc gets you in fast

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My boyfriend is also in a deep psychosis. I feel so inept to help him. I just joined this site to gain a better understanding and to support him as fully as I can. Please don’t hesitate to get to urgent care or hospital. This is a medical emergency for you and you need to get the opinion of a professional to regulate your meds. Please don’t ignore how badly you’re feeling! God bless and keep you.:heart:

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@Love.a.schitzo

I’d like to encourage you to join our forum for Family and Caregivers that can be found at:

While this is a peer support forum for people with schizophrenia and other closely related psychotic disorders, the Family forum is specifically for people like yourself, who have a loved one they are concerned about.

Also, please let your loved one know about this forum as they may find it helpful.

Best of luck,

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@DearZombie

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Hope you are feeling much better now. Psychosis is no joke

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I hope the higher dose of clozapine works and you’re feeling better in no time!

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Guys I wouldn’t desire this episode to happen even to my worst enemy.
I was outside of my mind.
I had celestial revelations.
I was special. I had euphoria and terror simultaneously.
I was in transcendent planes and stages.
Not explored by human mind yet.
My brain was full of outside air.
I couldn’t think. I was disorganized.
I was obsessed over my formula/mantra that the voices taught me.
I had no self, no responsibility, no control.
I was like a wild animal.
Everything that was coming in my mind, seemed real, I had no mind to reason or argue