I’m doing better at stopping my hallucinations, but I still have trouble thinking when I’m out in public. I shut down and go into fear mode which only breeds more hallucinations. I need to take my mind off of my hallucinations and start thinking again. The telepathy isn’t real I know that but it keeps happening. I just wonder how long it’s gonna take to get back to normal.
I tend to look at it like this. I will never be completely normal. I still have residual symptoms, but I have learned how to deal. What I shoot for is to be better than I was, and I am a lot better. I also make a daily goal to do something to make tomorrow better than today.
As far as not being able to think. I get like that sometimes, and I hate it. But I am not there as much as before the meds. Before meds my thought process was so disorganized. I would change the subject in a conversation most of the time mid sentence, I mean me speaking. All I can say about that is I feel ya brother.
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it will probably be a process of learning to filter out/ignore/let go of things. being schiz is like having no filter at all and everything coming at you at the same time
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Keep at it! Years of thinking a certain thought is horribly difficult to weed up. I remember 2-3 years ago thinking “These thoughts have haunted me for years now. I’m almost 100% sure now I will never get over this.” After so much torment, I’m standing. What was haunting me then is no longer even in existence as far as I’m concerned. I thought I would never be here.
I went through that literally. I couldn’t block anything out. I stepped outside and I saw every color and everything that was moving. It was actually quite painful.
Yeah me too like full out sensory overload
Bro,I think negative thinking haunted me for one decades,I feel it’s time now for me to let go,I believe I can change to a more optimistic thinking slowly
My thoughts are tormenting at times. They last for days the same thoughts like some action horror movie running in my head non stop. They are about my children and I’m trying to save them, yeah right, like if that is going to happen. I’m always feeling helpless and and I lose my fights in these battles. I’m not going to lie to you but I come from a long history of sever abuse, neglect as a child and trauma, hard and difficult pregnancies, hateful mother, half brother and sister rivalry. I care about them but they hate me. My father was loving and believed in God. He passed away awhile back, he was a good man. I have a loving brother with same dad. I was surrounded with witchcraft, horror, terror and abuse. Its all on court records even my devastating divorce. I lost in every case. God, Science, my children and Faith are my survivors right now.