As of recently, more specifically since my diagnosis, I feel unwanted by almost everyone. The only people I feel actually care about me are my mom and an online friend I’ve know for 5 years. Seems like I’m just the unwanted family member that gets tolerated. I try to talk or express my thoughts/feelings about something, both positive and negative, and it never gets acknowledged. I get talked over. I just feel like no one except those two people care. I know I’ve put my family through some hard times with my illness, but I apologized every time. It hurts knowing my own sister doesn’t even want to take the time to just talk. It hurts feeling like my opinions don’t matter. I know I’ve let almost all of them down, and I hate myself for that.
TL;DR: I’m tired of feeling unwanted.