Feeling really suicidal, not having any command voices but does it really matter? Do I have to have commands in order to be suicidal, because I don’t want to live. I don’t want to keep going. I feel hopeless, like there’s no way out.
It’s not normal to think like that and that is serious flag. Ring your doctor, even emergency if possible. Get help. Sometimes it’s not something you can do on your own. Please. Get some help!
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There is always hope
You are young
You need to call your nurse
Hang In there you wront always feel this way
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Can you get to a hospital? Can you have someone take you? When you are depressed everything looks hopeless, even though it is not. Depression clouds your judgement and makes you forget that life ain’t so bad sometimes. Depression makes you forget your victories and your successes.
I’ve felt the same way you’re feeling right now a thousand times or more. But it doesn’t last. I can feel suicidal at night and just go to bed and in the morning I am fine and refreshed from a good nights sleep. People want to help you. Do you have someone you can call? Maybe if you get a few negative things off your chest by talking to someone else, it might help you.
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I’m thinking of driving to the crisis center but I don’t know if that will even help. I can’t go to the hospital, I have no insurance. I guess I don’t really want to die if I’m still concerned with future finances but I don’t want to live either.
Is there a relative or freind you can call
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I tried to call my friend and there was no answer
Can you phone the crisis center
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There is a hospital where I live that takes people for free without insurance. The crisis team will probably know if there is one near you.
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The other hospitals near me have to base it off your income if you don’t have insurance. I would think a hospital n ear you would offer the same.
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If I go to the hospital there is a chance I would have to stay at least a few days and I’m in school, I can’t afford to miss school. I want help but I can’t afford it. I’d rather just not be alive right now.
School can wait
I’ve felt this way before and it’s horrible lonely scary feeling
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My program is 100% attendance mandatory for completion of the course
Sorry you have to go through this, have been in your shoes many times, Things do get better and yes there will be more ups and downs, but you can get through them by reaching out for help, like you are doing now
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Can you not get well and then do the course
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Well I have to go to bed, I hope you have help or have made contact with friends, if you can , let us know how you are doing!!
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That sucks to hear you are suicidal 
I was recently too but I wasn’t in school at the time so I can only imagine what it could be like for you Hannah. Reach out to whoever you can. There are plenty if people on this forum who would be happy to give you support. In worst case it could be worth going to a hospital and trying to withdraw from your classes
i just got off the phone with the crisis line and that seemed to help a little bit. I took some prn klonopin and decided to try and sleep and see things with a fresh perspective in the morning. And if things still don’t get better I will drive myself to the crisis center. That’s the plan for now. And I’m phoning my pdoc in the morning to try and get an appointment asap
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No, I won’t get my refund and I won’t be able to afford the course a second time.
You can’t attend class if you’re dead, right?
Suicide ends any chance of your life ever getting better.
It is the one thing you can count on that is really forever.
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