Feeling really shitty

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I’m leaving for our trip tomorrow night and I really don’t want to ^%$ing go.

Actually, this trip has been a huge reminder of how much I struggle every day to keep my sanity in check. I am constantly fighting off this abusive and terrifying delusion and I can’t do anything worthwhile without getting triggered.

This trip feels like it’s going to be a huge stress for me. I don’t know if I’ll be able to enjoy it.

I’m feeling really bitter.

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trips are stressful for me too…

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It will be hard but you will get through it
How long you going for

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Trips are kind of a double edged sward.

On one side, its stressful to plan and that stress makes symptoms worse,

Getting out of your routine can also make things go a little wonky in your mind.

However, when you’re actually there, doing it, its usually pretty fun,

And you get a sense of accomplishment after you’ve completed it.

I think you’ll be okay once you get past the worry of anticipation and planning.

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Hi,

Thank-you. Just 10 days.

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I went on a trip over the summer and I felt the same way. In the end, I went. I had some trouble with my anxiety and hallucinations, and I couldn’t sleep at all. But I got to see my friend and do some cool touristy things. Is this for the overseas funeral? Or am I mixing you up with someone else?

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That is quite long trip
Maybe the first day is hard but maybe you could relax a little or even enjoy
Be strong and soon you will be home again and breath a sigh of relief

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It’s not for a funeral but a family member did pass away in April. So that’s the main reason we’re going.

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Thank you. I hope I can get some enjoyment out of it. Last time I went I had a blast but that was two years ago when I was in a different headspace.

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I’m sorry. That isn’t a fun trip. Who are you going to be traveling with?

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My mom. Yeah it’s going to be a bit depressing.

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I was thinking that too. I think once I’m there and I’ve settled in, it’ll be okay. It is a really nice little town with warm people and their attitude towards the dead is a bit different compared ours. So that’ll be interesting.

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