Days without sleep, battling my voices and hallucinations. Now trying to defeat depression. Life just really sucks this week. I feel so alone even though I know I’m not alone. All I want is a fix of heroin, a line of cocaine, or a few drinks to black out but I can’t. Hating life at the moment!
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you know drugs will make you worse in the long term.
I was drinking a lot at one point, so glad that phase is over.
You need to distract yourself. That’s what works for me best. Do something completely unusual.
What do you normally do in your free time?
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Try having a cup of chamomile tea. Have you tried L-Theanine supplement?
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I usually workout or go to AA meetings and try to socialize but I haven’t slept so I don’t think it’s safe to drive.
I drank tea last night and it didn’t work.
What’s L theanine supplement?
Heroin and cocaine are just going to make things worse not better. It may help numb things temporarily, but getting off that crap is a beast. If you have a habit, let the doctor help you get detoxed from it.
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yeah don’t drive.
L Theanine is a natural extract supplement from green tea.
I took it for about a year, it helped me calm down, focus and it reduced my intrusive thoughts significantly.
You can try it. Health food stores sell it or you can order from iHerb.
I was taking 1200 mg a day but you can start with 100 mg mornings, dinner.
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My doc gave me xanax for emergencies. It’s working like magic. 0.25 mg before bed only on very difficult days.
I already detoxed I’m 11 months sober.
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Have you not slept yet 
I’m sorry.
I was able to get a couple hours this morning but it was all very scary I don’t feel rested either. I hope there will be long restful nights in store for us both tonight
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Thanks for the suggestions I’ll definitely try it. Unfortunately I’m an addict so I can’t have Xanax.
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No I didn’t stayed up the whole night. I hope so to I’m very tired.
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dude I used to think smashing some heavy amphetamines would set me up for the day but keep in mind I quit showing up to work, became psychotic, made druggie friends, and ended up using all the time.
the damage i did is irreversible and is a primary reason my sz came out so early.
do you really want this for yourself. drugs are so bad for you. I cannot stress this enough. I have been in that boat 10 times over.
stay. away. from. drugs. PLEASE
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I’m not trying to relapse trust me I’m staying away from it. But it’s just becoming difficult without sleep
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Have you tried audio meditation? Those really knock me out halfway through
No I haven’t can I find it on YouTube?
Turn off all lights and block any possible source of light.
Get in bed in comfy clothes. Put your cellphone on this link with earphones.
Close your eyes and focus on breathing. 5 seconds breathe in, 7 seconds hold your breath, 5 seconds breathe out. Keep doing this and listen to the guided meditation.
Every time you are distracted, try again.
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sorry about the destiny stuff, but it’s a good one
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I know you can get 24 hours sleep music on YouTube. I’m sorry the tea didn’t work. If you were tense and suspicious, maybe you need to try it again. Not everybody hits a home run on their first time at bat.
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Thanks I’ll definitely try it
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Did your parents stress independence? It’s often the case when a mentally ill offspring sets out. It’s unrealistic. Healthy people need people. I was just thinking some of your troubles may be due to the fact that Independence Day is coming. It can be a stressful holiday.