I know i have sz but im almost certain im being Ostracized and abused by my community. I realize that fighting back only hurts me and i have to stop becoming agressive but it feels like the entire purpose of what they do is to destroy my life.
What do you do when its not all in your head and your community thinks you deserve to be punished. I dont think these people really know me but they k now stories and twisted truth about me. And this makes them believe i ahould be punished.
Im not crazy…some of what i go through is text book social Ostracism/mobbing
Anyways..i know nobody actually cares but i needed to vent because the abuse is causing me to loose good people in my life. I cant tell anymore whats abuse and whats mental illnesse.
Mostly neighbors and people that live around me. Part of it is definitely mental illness but the type and frequency of coincidences is too much to explain away with sz.
I know nobody will actually belive me but my struggle with this is real. I wish i could just stop reacting and get over it. I havnt done much harm in a long time and i cause no problems with people. I know they will not stop but i wish i could handle it better.
