I still keep thinking my boyfriend is the devil. The visions I had were so weird and the Pope says the devil is a person not a metaphor. I feel like he transformed my family into being workers for him so I can’t even trust my family.
I feel like the devil knows I made up stuff before and so is taking advantage of the fact that I just think I’m mentally ill when I’m actually not. And that in the end I’ll go to hell and North Korea with plastic surgery.
I just worry I’m in the small minority of people this is actually happening to. So no one will believe me. Just like celebrities have secrets that normal people won’t have access to. Same thing I think goes to me. Or maybe I’m not in the minority, it’s just people who have this aren’t dumb enough to chalk it off as mental illness–they actually do something about it.
I’m worried in the end there will be a set up that will make it look like I killed my family so they can take me away. I’m worried no one can help me or believe me. I feel like I have been contacted by other people technologically but I screwed up and now I don’t know what to do.
Any advice on how to counter these ideas? Or help me realize if it’s true or not.