So… I’ve been meaning to tell you this, because you believe we should be honest with each other.
I think it’s incredibly selfish of you to want to go unmedicated when you have daughters and a wife that worry about you. It’s not just you, and you know you can find a med that works for you.
You tried going off them in the past and it went incredibly bad, so why ruin what’s good? If it’s alright, don’t spoil it.
CBT isn’t helpful if you’re delusional, so forget psychotherapy. Only a few of us are lucky enough not to pass the line of completely delusional and time has proven you that you’re not one of the lucky ones that can go without meds.
Think about your kids, about your life with them, and think about if you want them to grow up with an unmedicated schizophrenic as a father.
I grew up with an unmedicated bipolar as a father and it was terrible for us. I know I know better than my father so I can be a better person.
I’m not comparing you to him, because he was not as good as a person or as a father as you are, but just saying that unmedicated MI is no piece of cake.
You’ll eventually be hospitalized again, they will suffer because of it, just because you have the belief you’re more like “yourself” unmedicated. Well, I have that belief also, and I also know that what I percieve as myself unmedicated is a mess of a person, and not healthy or trusthworthy because of that.
Think long and hard about this and consider your future.
There are consequences of having consequential psychotic breaks to your brain, but you don’t seem to care about that. You seem to care about your daughters, so think if thats the future you want for them.
What will they think of their father in the future? “He was a great father medicated. Completely bonkers unmedicated but he decided that way”
I’m just saying Patrick, it’s selfish.