I’m really starting to feel like I can’t relate to the vast majority of the people on this forum. There’s so much weird stuff here, so many people who refuse treatment, and so many people who just seem mired in illness. Sometimes it’s really depressing and draining reading the messages posted here.
I guess it’s a case of people who are doing well move on instead of looking back. Most days I don’t even think about my illness except when I read this place. I used to think that I got something out of this forum and that I helped in some way. As time goes by I realize that this isn’t the case.
I wish there was a place for people who are both schizophrenic and doing well mentally. I guess that’s just a fantasy.
I hope my post about Heaven hasn’t made you disappointed. I try hard not to post about spiritual things but the movie really made an impression on me? Maybe you aren’t even talking about that? Residual paranoia…I do hope you plan on staying @Malvok because your support and advice is immeasurable. I hope you stay anyways.
The post about that movie? I skimmed the thread but it isn’t what I’m talking about. I’m not saying that I’m leaving, just expressing my dissatisfaction about relating to the forum.
I see what you mean. I feel bad on this forum because I’m always posting about how “good my life is” and there are so many struggling and suffering here. This site pulled me through the hardest, darkest part of my life and I feel good about trying to help here. You really help too @Malvok I am glad you are staying.
I just skim over the posts I don’t relate to. They say miser loves company, and when I come across someone who is struggling with the same things as me it helps me.
There is a time for everything, and when what you have no longer fits or loses it’s flavor, it’s time for a change.
Nothing wrong with that.
It’s good to know that you are well enough to “play with the regular kids” and I hope someday I find myself in the same place too.
Currently I am not actively psychotic, but this does not mean that I cannot try to sympathize and support others going through a rough time. After all I went through psychotic experiences in the past and I can still relate to it in many ways.
I still experience some reality based paranoia and anxiety - I still have some residual agoraphobia and I still struggle with some depression - I like to support others and I still seek out advice and support from others that experience some of the same symptoms that I experience - this is after all a site set up for those suffering with schizophrenia and related disorders - and for their supporters - Delusional ideas and unusual beliefs are going to be part of the picture - especially on a SZ site - it is to be expected - and I accept it
I understand what you mean. There has been a very heavy spate of postings by people who deny that there is anything undesirable about their psychosis, who clearly believe strongly in their delusions and don’t want help to get out of them, who see themselves as somehow spiritually gifted or who insist that sz is not an illness, etc, etc. It is disturbing when it’s not tedious. I am here as a “muggle” carer so am not best placed to say how to deal with it. I am hoping it is “just a phase.” But if recovered people/people in remission dial back their contributions, then those people will dominate and the whole forum will become less healing, I believe.
(I realize that I also posted recently that I believe in a Higher Being - so you may class me as deluded too. I just try to stay off that topic.)
I think some of the mainstream delusional ideas in the unusual beliefs are bit much for an sz site and a bit disappointing .
sometimes I think certain people (i don’t like to name names) but it’s someone obsessed with alien conspiracy etc) are more interested in weird conspiracy crap than getting help and support from this forum and that is an annoyance and honestly just unhelpful.
It doesn’t belong on a mental illness site it belongs in a conspiracy forum there 100s of those out there go post there
Now if it was a post inquiring about it as a delusion and they are seeking help then it’s ok.
This forum has gone through phases over the years. And I guess will continue to. I stick around to watch it + to have a place where I somewhat belong. I’m far from cured, but don’t dwell on my schizophrenia.
I was relating to the same thing the other day when I said this forum needed more successful stories of people who are mentally stable and in remission to inspire the others instead of all the negative feedback we continuously receive through most of the threads. For myself I still have negative symptoms but they seem to disappear when I come over just before I start reading all the stuff around and wished for the same fantasy malvoc has. A forum for schizophrenia for the mentally stable people to discuss means for improving their lives. It’s good to be a caregiver and help others but most effective help comes thru stable feedback and rational thinking for positivity and enduring the journey till the end. Sorry I couldn’t condense the message further.
I see these forums as a broad church as to how far along the road to recovery people are. It’s easy to be negative about the more delusional and non compliant (with any form of treatment) posters, but I’m guessing a few doing well now have walked in their shoes in the past.
What was the catalyst for veering off the path of non compliance and taking your illness and treatment seriously?
Maybe when these things bother you, you could turn back to yourself and look at what you could be doing to further your recovery. How far do you want to go?
Most people don’t start taking their meds after being off of them + crazy - and things clear up. And become clear-minded enough to progress in therapy and be able to think about things. For some it’s a case of not going from black to white, but still in some gray area.
I don’t mind the Unusual belief section. We all have some. When a thread gets a bit out of hand, I’m glad the moderators will lock it down.
I’ve had to embrace a few unusual beliefs to work through them and realize that it was just more sneaky brained thinking.
There are some members in the Unusual Beliefs section trying to get a handle on their crippling beliefs.
One member comes to mind due to now posting some great and inspiring recovery threads.
Everyone takes their own path at their own rate.
I stay out of the unusual belief section usually due to the fact that I do get sort of sucked in and my sneaky brain loves to latch on to stuff like that in a big way. To fight off my sneaky brained thinking, I don’t do much in that section.