I recently joined Facebook and I have family who rejected friend requests.
I know I have had delusions and paranoia and strange beliefs about my family aswell as bad behaviour but now I am trying to heal and build good relationships.
My brother and sister have hundreds of Facebook friends possibly even thousands and I have a precious few.
My brothers in Sweden were embarrassed about things I had written that was not sounding good.
I have two friends from when I was a child but we are not connecting and they have children and careers and marriage etc
But am thankful to have them as Facebook friends after so many years with no contact.
A few family members have me as friend despite that I may embarrass them.
My brother and sister and other people are so popular and I am the embarrassment .
I did have four strangers ask to be my Facebook friends but I was told it is dangerous to add strangers unless they know one of your friends.
A woman I met on the old schizo forum told me she was a designer with her own fancy boutique and she was so popular until she got schizophrenia then everyone avoided her.
I am grateful for what I have and do not compare myself to the popular ones but itās a bit sad though.
I want to get off Facebook but want to stay so I can see pictures of my cousins and their children etc
Pages come up suggesting me to like a famous person and I pretty much like everyone even some who I am not familiar or knowledgeable about.
But I think it might be nice seeing them around and some of them I have seen or so.
My sense of humour is as it is but I am nice and caring but it can be wicked I think.
But I care .
I do not laugh often.
Because I find something funny n it could be inappropriate.
I once laughed a guy in the face about s horrid thing going on with him but I really liked him as a friend and wished him well.
I think I over think things too. Maybe just part of the illness? I also laugh at inappropriate times. Itās good to hear there are people just like me! thanks!!! I feel a little more normal!! I had a lot of facebook friends but it seems more people are getting rid of their accounts or deleting me as a friend. My husband thinks it causes depression. What do you think?
Sorry about them but I am pleased with those I do have.
Even my step father I had who I had horrendous fights with added me to my surprise.
If anyone was to be embarrassed of me I thought it could be him.
I always liked him despite the nasty fights we had and I think my mum and he are good friends not sure if they are still couple but they live apart now.
I am careful who I add or ask to add on Facebook. I worry since I have a hard time connecting to normal people that I will never bring myself to trust someone who is normal
Donāt worry about being popular. Itās over rated. Iāve had 2 stalkers, bunch of friends, And all it did was made me feel more lonely.
U know that feeling when you realize that people feel excited to hang out with u? Like that look in their eyes that you can do no wrong and that by hanging out with you theyāve somehow āuppedā their social status? Itās so weird but I felt that all the time. And I donāt consider myself particular popular but before I got sick I had over 4,000 Facebook friends. Now Iāve deactivated my account. I never have an urge to be on it. So if u think thatās popular then I hope you truly know thereās nothing great about it.
I literally have one friend now. Only one. Thatās how much this illness has changed me. And bc I used to fight with my sister she also didnāt have me as a friend on Facebook. Iāll be your friend tho! Message me on here. And i feel like itād be weird to give my phone number in public but over time Iāll throw it to u and we can text anytime. Sorry I just have weird boundaries ever since being stalked in college.
Blessed it be!
to you guys yo!!!