I was so lost, that my becoming psychotic was the only way I could find my way home. I didn’t know enough to go home when I started to fail, but, thankfully, the authorities new I was lost and called my folks. That’s more than the doctor knew. The bad side of it was that my doctor really let me down and I felt I couldn’t trust him.
When did this happen? Is the med you’re on not working?
Yes, the meds are working. I’m living in the past, reviewing with new understanding. It happened in 1969.
Oh. It’s good that you’re processing through it.
Yes, I finally understand what is good about being a loser.
No you’re not. If that’s how you feel you should work with a therapist for a while. It’s not good walking around feeling like that.
No @LilyoftheValley we win some and we lose a lot. Just like if you enter a piano competition you have to know you might lose. A loser is just a good sport.
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You’re not a loser. Far from it. You are 75, past every expectation for a schizophrenic! That alone makes you a winner.
I noticed you fixate on the past a lot. You still have years ahead, why notfocus on what you can do with them? Write a book about the things you have done and living with your disease! I’d edit it for free and help you put it on Amazon soyou can make a little money if you like.
Try walking. Art. Spoken word poetry on Youtube.
I gave up my past because it consumed me with might have beens and what ifs. It is liberating to be free of the past.
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Nice thinking, @anon4362788 but aging is a reality and I have the aches and pains that keep me shy of doing more. I don’t want to write about my sz because it is too damn painful. Working on the past does free up a lot of me so that is why I do it. But it could just be a matter of my own narcissism causing me to dwell on myself. Depends on if you think of it as positive or negative.
I respectfully disagree. I’m going to leave it at that because I don’t think you’re a loser and I don’t want to argue about it.
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