I think I’m close to rock bottom. Things just keep piling up and I feel like I’m about to finally crack. I’m not coping with any of the illnesses in my family from heart disease to cancer, and I’m not coping well with my break up that was four freaking months ago. I’m just an anxious mess. I still don’t want to drink or anything, and that’s not the same worry that it was four months ago.
I feel like I have to do something right this minute, and I think that what I can do is delete my facebook. I feel exposed with my facebook, and I feel like I’m just comparing myself to other’s and it’s not helpful. I don’t have anything else to fill my time up than to go on social media and here, and I haven’t felt welcomed or like I’m apart of any community regardless of where I go.
Things keep piling up, and I’m at the point where no medication is going to fix it. I’ve been in therapy twice a week for three months and I just can’t get over this bridge. I want to wake up and have it be January 2nd so I can get moving on my next semester of school. I may be able to graduate by the end of 2023, and that would make the end of 2023 a lot different than the end of 2022.
As they say, “keep your eye on the prize.” I would suggest putting your energy toward graduating at the end of 2023. I can understand why you want to get back to school to stay busy and focused. I hope the time goes by fast for you.
In the meantime, try watching some television or streaming to take your mind off of things. Maybe try reading a book.
I’m sorry you’re so stressed out. I like the suggestion to focus on graduating in 2023. It’s a healthy goal to focus on. And don’t quit therapy or meds. They’re both super important