I am feeling pretty dang good these past two years but there are a few things on the bigger scale that still trip me up. That is when it comes time to defend myself. I can only do it once in a while. I’m such a big chicken.
My sis has been saying that she has been feeling like there is a peeper looking into her room. So she’s been shutting the curtains and dressing in the washroom. But she’s been on about this peeper. It’s foggy so maybe she’s just seeing things.
A few days ago I was sure I saw the peeper. Convinced myself that it’s a hallucination. This peeper thing has been happening a bit more. I’m still convinced that it’s a hallucination. So this morning the sis freaked out in her room and runs out and said the peeper was by the back fence.
I go check and there are footprints and an empty vodka bottle in the bushes by our back fence. I’m still too chicken to call the cops because the ones on the beat here know I see things. I should call the cops. But afraid they won’t believe me.
The parents said I should at least let the landlord know since they believe me, don’t touch the bottle or the foot prints or anything else and maybe talk to the cool neighbor to see if they have noticed anything.
I really hate it when my SZ, my paranoia, my doubt in myself keeps me from standing up for myself.