Ever feel like your thoughts are being policed

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Hi all.

I should start off my saying I have OCD and Schizophrenia. Thought broadcast makes me think terrible things about people around me. I think if I didn’t have Schizophrenia, I wouldn’t have OCD.

Anyway, does anyone ever feel like you can’t think anything, like you have no freedom of thought, and that the voices are constantly monitoring your every thought and you can’t just think whatever you want to think?

This is an ongoing feeling for me.

Recently I’ve had a lot of trouble sleeping, I find myself just chit chatting with voices for the whole day when I’m low on sleep, it makes it really difficult to work and just live life.

If you have any similar experiences or suggestions of how to get through, I’d really appreciate it.

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Maybe they are “keeping you company” - but its best to quietly ignore them, and put some headphones on to distract your mind. You paying them attention, is just keeping them live. Your gonna be more susceptible when your tired as well.

If you had them all day - thats the time when you should take your meds early, to give your brain a rest.

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Thats the paranoia element of Sz. You gotta learn to relax.

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Yes I think most of us have had hallucinations throughout the day at some point. Are you taking medicine for it?

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Welcome to the forum

To deal with this all day will wear you out. You need to let your pdoc know that your symptoms are this severe. Try to distract yourself from the voices if you can because letting it continue will make your pyschosis worse in the long run. You may lose insight into your illness altogether.

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Yeah, I do, but it’s called marriage.

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I understand what you mean by “thought broadcasting,” but I don’t believe that every person on this planet knows what you’re thinking about. Maybe psychics, but they are of course the minority.

Please just focus on your own life and health, and don’t care about other people at this moment. Don’t give a ■■■■ to other people’s opinions on you, even if “thought broadcasting” does exist. If it does exist, then there’s nothing you can do about it, so just be calm and concentrate on yourself, and other people’s opinions do not matter.

I also understand “racing mind” and “running thoughts.” However, when I experienced those symptoms, I was able to think freely, no matter how loudly and frequently and persistently those psychics were talking in my mind. I believe in free will, no one can control your mind, no one can deprive you of your right to have freedom of thoughts, not even telepathy, not even the psychics. You have to believe in yourself, you have to believe in the fact that all of your challenges are temporary, and your mental state will improve, after you receive treatment. This has to be certain.

Just go to see a professional psychiatrist, be honest and transparent to them, and try taking anti-psychotic medications, and we will see if you can feel better, after you take the medications. If symptoms of this level of severity should persist, please just take a rest and relax, at least physically, and please refrain from any job of complexity, including driving a vehicle or operating a machine.

The symptoms are very challenging, I totally understand, but you have to believe that those are temporary. If you try meds and treatments, then there is hope.

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thanks for the reply, i definitely make use of music to ignore the voices. I listen to music everywhere I go.

I wish I had this option at work though, that’s when they really try and provoke me

I hadn’t thought of taking my meds earlier, it sounds like a good idea

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yep I’m on clozapine, unfortunately I was on 450mg and got terrible akathisia

I’m on 200mg now and the voices are about the same

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I think the best thing is to be comfortable with who you are and the thoughts that you have. It’s normal to have odd, angry, mean, sad thoughts etc.

I read that about 7% of the population hears voices. A lot of people have similar experiences.

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I didn’t know this. Very very interesting

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i cant follow the conversation. its usually on the internet that i cant follow. mostly live events. i get cranky.

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I had delusions of mind control. Schizophrenia can make you feel a lot of different and weird things. I guess it’s unlikely or impossible. Schizophrenia is sort of like mind control or thought control. I have delusions of aliens, government, and Illuminati mind control. I rationalized it by saying it happened in parallel universes or past lives or during my nightmares. Nobody believes it. At night, I’ve hallucinated people and they were talking to me. I felt like I was in a different environment and it looked and felt real. It didn’t really make sense. It felt like my infinite subconsciousness did it. It’s hard to tell if it’s real or not and it felt scary and unreal.

My mind is powerful. I guess I remembered my dreams. It only lasts a few minutes or so. And then I wake up.

Paranoia can make you think a lot of things. I guess it’s dopamine. It’s not quantum or spiritual. A lot of my dreams were negative.

It felt like inception or west-world in a way haha…

I ‘read into’ a lot of conspiracy theories over the years. I watched videos and read books on the subject. It just reinforced and fed into my delusions. It’s not healthy. I kind of regret it.

In the end. Nobody really cares. It’s up to me to get better and live with my condition.

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