I fear I’m destined for a never-ending barage of futility and misery. I’ve spent 36 years struggling to get by, always hoping to turn a corner but never getting there. This is true when it comes to relationships, my career, and just generally my mental health. I have difficulty with relationships. I rarely go on ‘dates’ and when I do they don’t work out. I try online sites but it is basically just an excercise in futility. I have no career, Noone hires me to even wash dishes. I have 2 diplomas and I consider myself somewhat intelligent but I still find myself approaching oblivion at lightning speed. Sometimes I think to myself, wouldn’t it be nice to have a gal, a job, and a full life where I find meaning in the things I do…but then my antipsychotics kick in and I realize that is not a realistic thought. I know I need to be on meds because if I don’t I start having delusions but these meds don’t even me out, not based on the outcomes I’m seeing… don’t worry, I’m not going to jump off a bridge, just feel like venting to some people who might understand where I might be coming from.
I think most of us can relate at times 
It would be nice to have a mate and a career, but this cards weve been dealt…no one ever said they were fair
surely im more desirable and capable than some of the people with wives and jobs
i cant give up hope, so i dont, and neither can you
hope you feel better soon
I feel a little down and anxious too. I have a masters degree but finding a job is very difficult. My ability to talk with women is so bad I actually welcomed the AP I was on has the side-effect of making me chemically sterile. Right now I’m still applying for jobs but also disability and waiting to see which one I can get first. I currently live with my parents but I know that isn’t a lasting situation. But there is always a light at the end of the tunnel. Things can always get better. We just need to try everyday.
wow you guys are amazing with your degrees and all!
im a 26 year old college dropout
im going back to school in the fall though
excited for it
Good for you. Just keep trying. I actually started to get my hallucinations about 2 years before I graduated so it is still very possible to do it. In fact from what others have said on this forum it is something multiple sz are doing. Just keep at it.
I have a degree , but what for. Actually, the welfare system operates on paper, and I’m very good at filling out paper.
Jayster
Hey @shutterbug, I think @Johnny may be a troll. He joined 30 minutes ago and his posts all seem to give off the scent of eau de troll