Trying to analyze schizophrenia to decide about taking med…Don’t you think your so-called hallucinations are sort of another version of reality happened to you later in life or the facts you noticed later in life?
Because I think they are sort of like revelation…
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Yes. This is exactly what I think they are. But meds help to keep me grounded in this reality, so I take them
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You are right, I think I have already been grounded after taking them for more than 15 years…
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There is absolutely a measure of “reality” to hallucinations. They might come from alternative parallel realities that for some reason you have a “foot” in. At the very least, if they have no outer reality, they are a testament to the power of the mind. In other words, they are not random garbage coming out of nowhere.
-Albert.
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I don’t think hallucinations are part of another reality. There’s only one reality and I’m living in it.
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I feel like Paycheck movie, I am the one who is causing all my issue to lead me some direction. I cross question with this thought: The thing is after 11 years still am I directing self to some meaning full thing?
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Alternate realities: no.
Manifestations of our innermost motivations, fears, and beliefs: yes.
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Once i saw a guy running in the road.
He vanished.
What was it? Who knows?
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My so-called schizophrenia started with fear in the past and not hearing voices in the beginning. Nobody talked to me but they put me in a hospital where I was injected haloperidol. I was young and didnt know world I thought I am negative and see the world bad (because after using meds I was sleeping all the time and was not feeling anything outside of my world so everything and everybody looked nice again because I was sleeping for years!) I stopped meds when I went abroad because I wanted to be awake and study and then was time I started to hear voices for the first time, I am analyzing that I think because my fears were not solved in the beginning instead they made me sleep for years so this time that I got awake again I felt fear again but also felt I have become sick again and see the world bad again. This emphasized my bad feelings compared with the first time. I really thought I am crazy I went to a doctor and told him about my hallucinations which were a bit accompanied with realities but at that time I thought I am totally crazy because others treated me like I am although I was not a threat to myself or anybody I always was nice but I got weird a bit because I wanted to live be myself and they saw it’s not me that was sleepy all the time. Anyway I stayed on that med for 9 years until I started to think I am not crazy, and other people around me are. So stopped it but those people didnt let me succeed again and put me in hospital again. First time in my country without hearing voices I was succeeding in my studies, smart students started to talk to me and I started to feel fear because I was low confident. I didnt study whole highschool and that time I was in one of the best universities, I was not much outgoing before that time I started to talk with people and experience living in a real world now that I think it was natural I feel fear because it was my first time in outer world. Same happend the second and the third time!
Whats really not comprehensive to me is that people don’t share the “reality” part of their insanity very much, even on a forum like this. For some reason most keep it to themselves.
Also insanity is not a problem when you manage to pull other people into it and just are convincing. They only start sending you to the clinic when you are on your own and keep to yourself or stop being convincing.
Maybe I shouldn’t even call what I mean insanity.
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They aren’t, they’re unhealthy hallycinations and delusions.
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I dnk. Probabaly I sometimes have insanity too but I don’t recognize. In the hospital, a person working there told me in your report is written you went to the street without clothes I am sure I didn’t. Plus, it was written I am threat to myself or others I dont remember exactly to myself or others but that’s why police arrested me 3 times and sent me to hospital. Anyway I was no threat to me or anybody else at all. In opposite, I was very happy and was busy living my own life…
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Not mine, no. Mine were all like the worst written X-Files episodes, ever.
Actually rather embarrassed over the stuff I used to believe. Like an alien race is going to use up the energy equivalent to a solar system to cross a galaxy or three (and somehow without time dilation) to anal probe me. Like I’m that important.
< snork >
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The truth is out there. I have delusions about aliens as well. I don’t think it is too farfetched. Many people believe aliens exist.
As for hallucinations, I think @Schztuna pretty much summed up what I think about them. They can be random though, but I think it has a lot to do with what she mentioned.
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That’s true. In reality probably you are not that important in the whole world but what about in some smaller scale?
In my community, sure. To my customers, sure. To an alien race bent on colonization, not so much.
Nothing happened to you guys. It wasn’t aliens, nor was it Donnie Darko or Truman “experience”. It’s just a bad circuit in the mind. You need to detach yourselves from your delusions and do something progressive with your lives. That’s it! I’m going to start working out again. Nevermind what I said, I was talking about myself.
Yes! My voices got all their ideas from me.
That’s what I think too. Right now I am trying to know this disease better so that I decide if I am really sick or not so that I continue with my med or not bec my med has made me disabled! But now that I am older, wiser and stronger wouldn’t let they do the same. I didn’t want to let it happen again last year too but interference of others made it worse. I believe if they wouldn’t meddle with my work and wouldn’t call police I wouldn’t feel I am very important too. Because I couldn’t get why I should be arrested 3 times! Me? I never hurt anybody so that must be a plot!!! So I believe I became active at some point when dosage of med went down and I had more energy people didn’t like that I am little bold and loud because normally I was sleepy and called the police and lied to them because they were not my friends and they could not see me as an active girl because always were on meds! And then y brain started to make a story why police arrested me so maybe I am important I was but in circle of my few friends/family but my brain made up a bigger story. If my family wouldnt treat me like that my brain wouldnt go so far I would probably just would be a more active girl compared with normal and many more opportunities would happen for me because I was not sleepy anymore and all these years on meds I didnt let them stop me, although I was sleepy I tried to drink coffee/energydrink/smoke and stay awake and study for my goals. It was indeed hard but I didnt stop fighting and that also made me stronger and when I stopped meds I was already stronger person mentally and because of no med my energy would double of course they would notice a change in me but does that mean I am sick? No the way you treated me made me think i am important globally although I was sort of more important but only in their minds!
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I think I’ve figured out why I started to hear voices! Because I had been put on haloperidol for years and when I stopped it suddenly, that was the first time I started to hear voices and then they even gave me more antipscychotics to treat antipscychotics’ withdrawal adverse event?!!!
I don’t think I have schizophrenia. What do you think?