I think you should accept the diagnosis of a qualified medical doctor.
They do not have history of me…
Some of mine seem like past lives that I’m getting visions of. In those cases, I usually follow what they seem to be indicating, usually a “this seems good” or “stay away from this”.
Others are extremely chaotic like spiders crawling out of my leg, buildings falling apart or apocalyptic imagery. Those I just tend to close my eyes and try to ground myself. It’s taken me a long time to perfect dealing with everything without, well, most people noticing. Or if they do, they don’t say much. At most they ask if I’m okay. I usually just say, “Yeah, I just need a minute.” Apparently, people just think I have a minor panic attack.
Oh I am sorry about what you experience 
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About myself, I am thinking maybe I haven’t experienced schizophrenia and those were withdrawal adverse events… Voices never disrespected me or made me do anything dangerous… Or I never felt anything strange like spiders on my leg etc…
They just gave me halol this time and it had a lot of side effects, my hands and legs started to jump, my mouth got locked to the extent I thought my teeth are displacing etc. for multiple days and I was not monitored too I thought voices started to agonize me because there was no internet there to research so my mind made up this story but then noticed they are side effects i told doctor and I got calmed by injecting a med and then switching halol to Aristada!
@Ladouleur : Honestly, if you can get some grounding, the really chaotic hallucinations can be easier to handle. It’s more obvious that they aren’t happening. That being said, I have been in a building that caught fire in front of me and didn’t notice until a person I was seeing at the time started freaking out. I didn’t cause it or anything but it did happen right in front of my eyes and I didn’t react until others did. I was asked, “What’s the matter with you?!” I stumbled on my reply a little bit but I finally said that fire is kind of hypnotic to me. It’s one of the things that reminds me that my tactics are not 100%.
As for the voices, they can be difficult with in their demeaning nature but I have found that, unlike actual voices (people actually talking to me), they will generally respond if I respond to them in my mind. It’s also not perfect if I think of saying a response and a person is actually just saying things to me that seems to fit as a response to what I just thought. (Not sure how else to word that one.) The good thing is that it means that they have to work a little harder to get my attention. It just seems like I’m inattentive at times.
It’s hearing sounds that’s the worst. I have to figure out if a weird sound is something that I should investigate. I will often get up to track down a noise that I am hearing. I always have to keep in my mind that anything I experience could literally just be me. It took time to not react to those as well. Again, the problem being if it’s a gunshot or something that is actually happening, I can be slow to react to it now.
I understand because to some extent I have experienced that like voices of walking or talking but not in a great scale… Do you take any meds and hear voices still or not?
I understand because to some extent I have experienced that like voices of walking or talking but not in a great scale… Do you take any meds and hear voices still or not?
I refuse to take meds.
It’s good you could decide your own decision. Doctors and my family didn’t let me although I didnt harm anybody…
Only a few people know but I have not let any professionals know except for one family member. She told me what I have but it’s not on any chart anywhere. She wants me to go in but she also knows my web of coping mechanisms and how long it’s been going on. She’s actually quite impressed with me. For me though, it’s just been living my life trying to not put people off.
Truth be told, I never knew that what I was experiencing was something to diagnose until I was having more and more issues controlling it. I was always told that I had a “hyper active imagination” and that “I would grow out of it”. More to the point, I learned how to deal with it… mostly. I have only gotten into two fights in my life but that was when I was really young so they said that I was just “acting out”.
Life stress can make it worse though so when I was talking with my family member about some of the things I was going through, my guard started to drop and I mentioned things that I’ve learned not to anymore because it makes people uncomfortable around me. She stopped me and started asking me more pointed questions. She actually works in psychiatric wards.
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