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Unusual Beliefs
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It could be depersonalization symptoms but i feel i lack a sense of being human alive. I feel estranged from myself all time like i have to talk to my parents to get remotely a sense that im who i am. Idk it probably sounds bonkers and strange sorry if it triggers anyone

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I feel alone with this problem like noone else can relate idk

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I feel something like this. It’s tied up with my OCD tho. I feel like through all of the thoughts and emotions I’ve lost my sense of self.

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I have barely any emotions

Idk i feel so disconnected from having sense of being i feel like a shell of my former self

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I’m the same and it’s tough to live this way. I think it’s a symptom of sz - poverty of emotions.

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You are not alone Ducky. I think a lot of us here can relate to what you are experiencing - I know I do.
I think you have a good coping technique in checking in with your family.

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Thanks but i cope best i can but im always foggy in a fog mind and body, no cure, it could be from past traumas.

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Im beginning to associate my personal symptoms and personal mh issues to do with past trauma.
(Not so long ago i was blaming it all on the meds)
Schizophrenia origins vary person to person i reckon

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Yeah, past trauma could be a strong factor for what you are experiencing. Have you gotten therapy or some form of counseling to help you work through it? @Ducky

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@Vinegar

I don’t feel the same. I feel like very few people here or anywhere can relate? A bereaved person feels somewhat numb but not all the time for years?

Yes I’ve had some therapy in the past but it was no good for me i couldn’t find any benefit from it.

Thanks

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@AKendrick its difficult i know and mental illness can change your sense of self.
Im sorry to harp on about it all but it is so difficult to live like this. I try to cope but relatives and even mh team dont say anything about it or understand really

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That sounds like PTSD. I am so sorry therapy couldn’t help you.

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Your right it could be. I need to relay this to my psychiatrist but its not easy as my appointment only lasts 20 minutes so much to say in a small time

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try not to talk to yourself or even imagine that

i feel the same, an empty shell

if you walk outside enough from point a to b youll notice a sense of relife when entering indoors

try not to have voluntary direct eye contact in public

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I feel you ducky. I hope we both find a solution :white_check_mark:

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Thanks @AKendrick

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@Vinegar ive thought about it and i reckon its depersonalization part of the schizophrenia. I don’t think i have ptsd

Thanks for helping me, much appreciated :cherry_blossom: :cherry_blossom: xx

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I know exactly what it is like. It’s strange. I think it has to do with identity.

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@Jinx yes it is for me ive lost my identity no exaggeration, i watch tv but barely can stand seeing normal people getting on with life, enjoying themselves when i feel so little and can’t connect with family hardly never mind strangers. I couldn’t handle having friends or cope doing work. Im sorry to say so much but all this is how i exist day to day

I feel in a fog and winging it with family to try and please them but feel disconnected

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I’ve been acting for years. Do you know the saying fake it till you make it? When it became apparent my Self had I found classical music to help me through it.

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