My entity sometimes nods and shakes my head, meaning yes or no. This can be less intrusive and quicker than it communicating verbally. Other times it will bow my head if I made a good point or to mean it is leaving it up to me to decide. Other times it will raise my head upwards in a snooty way in defiance. As it makes these movements through my body it is often making a wicked smile through my face and I get projections of how it feels like it is inside me.
And of course psychiatry fails to explain what are the neural mechanisms behind this. They’d say these are just random muscle twitches. Funny how it only happens when no one is watching. Saying I have too much dopamine just doesn’t have enough explanatory power for me somehow.
Although the entity used to try to blow my cover around mental health workers. I remember when I was dealing with the head of the department, the lady was a cougar, and my entity impersonated her and said she wanted me to be rough with her and said a bunch of sexual content in her voice. As he did this, he forced me to smile nonstop throughout the interview and I just told them I was smiling because of an inside joke. I remember how she innocently took interest in the subject and said she’d really like to know why I was smiling. I think they thought I was high.
With a psychiatrist I used to have, my entity would say hiel hitler over and over again and force me to laugh. The psychiatrist was a minority and again he was trying to blow my cover and put me in the hot seat.
I sometimes lose control of my body for just a moment. I can drop things, not be able to move the affected limb, or my head or whole body twitches. I don’t hear any voices but I think this comes from the sz or the meds.
I share similar experiences: mine gives me the middle finger on my right hand if I have a positive thought, plus muscles/nerves twitch regularly in response to stimuli.
Also at the base of my neck there is a jerking motion, its been happening since my first psychotic episode some years ago-the psychiatrist makes nothing of it though I was prescribed anti-psychotics (currently quetiapine which has helped with the voices but not the communication via body gestures)
I don’t really experience this, but sometimes my eyes will move to the top of my vision, and my focus will be above what I’m really trying to focus on, and I can’t change or move it. This happens when I’m not feeling alright. When it happens I think there’s aliens messing with me.
