Hi 
I think I have this symptom as well too. I think a lot negatively, plus I bug, just focusing on one things and not to all the ‘‘reality’’. I even have headaches because of this. I am anxious as hell too. I don’t understand why Zyprexa doesn’t calm my racing mind. But I guess, without the ap, I am even worse.
Maybe not everything is meds? It sucks to be like this. I am sorry to be always worried, but now I have work to do. I would even consider to enter a hospital again, but they couldn’t help me a lot before this either… I am just so passive since years that now I see the damages, that’s all. My fault? 
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I am just so empty and dumb since years… I don’t do anything since decades people… I realize that even the most low functioning ill people do something… That’s my tragedy. I am just good to be a nice, docile patient 
I understand your feelings
Life really does suck
For me the worse thing is I have no friends or social life and I’m getting older
I want badly to be fully functional but I have this vicious circle going on
But on the other hand I’m better than I was so I just keep hoping
I hope you will get better and come out of your shell
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Yeah, me too I have 2 more friends left. One of them never looks for me, its me who looks for her. The other one is ill… My mother is just so tired of helping my symptoms. Shellys, isn’t it strange that the ap doesn’t calm my mind? I never had a sedation on it either… I find it strange. idk what I have anymore in order to respond so bizarrely to meds.
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They told me clozapine was a wonder drug
People seem to think I could have a boyfriend but I never do
Ten years ago in hospital they talked about me having children one day = wrong
You might get on better with a more sedating drug do you think?
A drug like sulpiride might be good as it has a antidepressant type effect
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Yes, ill have to reevalute my desires too. Clozapine gave the worst emotional mountains in my life. Plus heavier panic attacks and bad constipation. Amisulpride made me agitated and anxious. Lot of antidepressant things give me anxiety, shellys. In fact I am weak in my legs and hands by fear plus the isolation now and I have troubles staying on my legs out, its to this point yeah. I also have impression that I suffocate outside by panic .
Do you think you could go somewhere quiet like a park or garden to get out of the house
Or maybe wherever you go you feel the same?
Have you been on your home bike today
yes, so i try and keep things simple
I am fed up of being good and understanding… i have no life since 20 years, its terrible… my illness is sooo boring i find per moments 
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