damn my situation, relationship and illness ruined me for life.
I do not feel desirable anymore. My self esteem is ruined.
If I leave, I think of the future and do not see hope even 5 years later to meet someone I will like and get along with. Or someone i will be happy with or have a family. In my hometown, everyone is broke in my circle of friends and family.
I have not met a guy I think highly of.
If I leave, I will be completely alone for a long time. I don’t like to have sex with strangers in clubs or jump into bed on a date.
I am old fashioned.
But staying here like this, alone and bored. What kind of life is this? I am a potato, gaining weight and eating crap.
I have a MI, I got vitiligo, almost 30, overweight… can not have kids what the hell!!!