Yes now I’m helping her but in the past I was not working and I’m not sure if I’ll be able to work when she will be gone.
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@zeno I’m sure just being there for her now and helping her means a lot to her. Good for you for helping your grandmother.
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I regret the hurt I’ve caused my partner. Because of my insurance and social security I can’t marry her. I love her very much and I can’t even legally show it.
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Schizophrenia chose me, not the other way around.
No regrets.
I regret every moment living without a cause.
I feel a bit hopeless 
I have regrets but that’s part of life. Tbh I’m more resentful of those around me who hurt me. My condition is something that I have to live with I’m done blaming it for all my problems
my family is bananas in the head so i treat them like i get treated, like shyt
It was as it was.
I have had paranoia and delusions about my family.
I am sorry for my wrongs and pray forgiveness for it but others were in my body so it was not always my fault.
I heard voices and screams and gun shots and moanes 24/7 back then.
They have had their nasty moments where they may of done wrong by me.
My father said it was my fault my grandma got sick and had to move to a home.
I thought another man was my real father instead but am only recently understanding that that may be a delusion.
A dark man I know.
I was bad behaved but others were steering me and in side me and I was not at home (in my body).
I was ridiculed for my agony and mocked.
Disrespected too and put down as so much lesser than all of them.
Worse than the Devil is how they may of treated me etc
I am sorry for the woman who raised me.
My stepmom who raised me said I am daughter to her despite how horrid I have been.
She took care of me , gave me s great place to live and gave me support and 
love.
My mum in Sweden thinks I am autistic Aspergers but not schizo .
Despite my delusions and things that she has witnessed.
My stepmom who raised me thinks I am schizophrenic I think.
My brothers and sister seemed to want power over me and that I should be crawling on my knees to them as the trash I am …
I still love them n I do not see myself as trash in bad ways.
I will not begin to write delusions I have had of my family but there has been a lot of wierd beliefs that I truly believed but am only now not seeing as that …baaaa
I am sorry for and to all the people I may of hurt but I was not myself.
I truly was not.
I still get othersin my body and one hysterical overwhelming one too …
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I love my family and parents and I see my step mum as a parent aswell as she was always involved in my life and she actually raised me aswell.
Does not mean I love my mum in Sweden any less cause I do not.
Once I thought my horse gave birth to me cause everyone else was aborting me.
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