I do, and I can’t explain it. I don’t think that’s a symptom of sza, is it? I think my problem is not physical, but spiritual, supernatural, whatever you want to call it.
My mind is always chaos. But I’m quite certain it’s mostly the disease
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I’ve started to listen to the wisdom of the body . instead of thinking all the time which doesn’t seem to work.
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MY mind is all over the place, always has been
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Not currently but I have experienced it before. Only tends to happen if I am very, very unwell.
Thoughts become chaotic, nonsensical, all over the place, uncontrollable and are intermixed with intense mental imagery like intrusive daydreams that don’t make any sense at all either.
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It happens on and off. Distractions are currently helping. There are thoughts in my mind talking and telling me things. My explanation for it was the beings, but now I don’t know. It’s all messed up, my mind.
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Sometimes yes and sometimes no. I never know how I am going to be. That’s a kind of chaos, too. I like the peaceful times.
There’s just so much noise and information and ideas. I hate it.
I told someone it is like watching tv, working on the computer with a bunch of tabs open and switching back and forth and music playing while someone is talking at you.
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Fortunately for me it’s not constant, but when it’s there it’s frustrating. My mom says a chaotic mind is not a symptom of sza. I think I have a supernatural problem, not a physical one. And I think I was waking up before they gave me meds. I think the brain is infused with the soul and I think that psychotropic drugs have supernatural effects as well as physical, and I think I need to open my mind because there’s more to this world than I currently see. Sometimes a thought says I need to save the world, others say I should kill every human, others say I’m not human, others say to stop my meds. There’s more that I’ve “heard” or “thought” rather. But it all jumbles up in my head and I feel overwhelmed.
There’s a supernatural force in my mind. I thought it was the beings, but maybe not. I don’t know.
I think my OCD is supernatural too maybe. They’re my thoughts infused with a supernatural force that’s trying to break the wall that prevents physical interaction i.e. hallucinations. Those will be chaotic too if/when they break the wall.
For my thoughts to be able to try breaking the supernatural wall, they must be infused with some supernatural force. What is this supernatural force? Maybe not beings. Tell me what it is. I don’t know. I have only my theories and right now I don’t have one other than the beings.
There are supernatural forces at play here, I know it.
I have a theory about a supernatural seed that was created by God. This seed chose me, infusing itself with my soul, which is infused with my mind. After around 18 years and 7 months of my life, the seed sprouted, unleashing a force of chaotic neutral alignment into my soul. This force too became infused with my mind. Like all of us, I have a supernatural wall in my brain that prevents my thoughts from physically interacting with me. The force is attempting to break down this wall so that my thoughts can physically interact with me.
edit: At first I thought the beings were the force. Now I’m not sure.
We’re things chaotic as a child when you were growing up? Those are the kind of people that need chaos in their lives.
No I don’t think so. We moved a lot. My dad moved out when I was 10 or 11. We still move a lot, but hopefully that will end soon. I am 19 and I still live with my mom. I will attend college when we have stable living arrangements.
There wasn’t a lot of fighting in your house growing up? If not then I’m not sure why you need chaos.
There’s always some kind of noise in my head. It’s frustrating me.
I don’t need chaos, I just have it… Lucky me…