Do you ever get the urge to just cut yourself off from everybody you know? Run away, change your name, start a new life far away from your current one? To leave and never look back?
Why? Why do we get this feeling? What does it mean?
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My therapist told me it’s adjacent to suicidal thoughts.
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So it’s sort of the same response just not as violent? I would say not as extreme but it’s still pretty extreme.
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I had the urge. I acted on it. Can’t recommend that course of action to others, but in my case it worked out in the end.
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Yeah, I don’t remember how she explained it exactly, but if suicide is a 10, running away is like a 7.
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I moved to where I am now years ago, I feel like taking off again, but too many health problems now.
On a few occasions I thru out everything I owned and had to start over, it is very costly, but I understand what you are saying
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@Ninjastar I know that I dont actually want to run away. I couldn’t live without the people I currently have. But when I get stressed or anxious and my thoughts get busy then that urge pops up. Because if I dont have to worry about them then maybe my head wouldn’t be so crazy.
@LED I mean, it does make sense. Thank you for pointing it out because I’d never connected the two in any way.
@Mountainman I dont think I could afford to get rid of everything I have
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either could I, not sure why I do that when ill, sadly I do though
I think taking off it a freedom thing, start over and have things the way you want them, just a new place with new problems lol, is what you end up with
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Yup, and I don’t consider it all that healthy.
I imagine running away to a hippie colony, live off the land, tend crops and goats, make cheese.
Really just fall off the world.
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Yes; I get that urge.
Change name, place, and disconnect from everyone.
Yeah looking back I think I was at the point where I hated my life so much, I needed it to end. My version of ending it was by starting a different one. I very nearly died several times, and only survived through a lot of random luck. It is very dangerous to go off on your own where nobody knows your name.
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i tried to move to oregon and california and arizona and colorado multiple times and start a new life. i wanted to get away, i also thought about changing my name, tried to walk to arizona and california, actually i made it one state before getting stopped. i always had to return home and after awhile the urges went away. in fact one time my dad put out a missing person’s report on me.
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I felt that way not a week ago. But it was driven by paranoia. I tried to convince my fiance to come with me
I fantasize it, but it’s a crappy fantasy. If I was single, I could make it happen, and I did several times in the past. Of all the 50 states, you never coulda convinced me at age 18 that I would have lived in those states and for so long. So who knows. Life has a way of throwing us random curveballs. I’ve even thought of going to Russia and making a hut in Siberia and living life there, alone, living off nature. Bleak and lonely, but hey, it’s a nice fantasy right? Who said we can’t have nice things, if even in our minds for a moment? 
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It is like your sub-conscious wanting a new life. You want to escape your life circumstances, so you want to move ect. It means you are suffering and want an escape. It means you are not content with your life, and you think your life is going to change when you move and change your name ect.
Yes all the time. Maybe one day when I’m older I might actually do it.
When I went off to college, nobody there knew me, and I realized for the first time I could tell them my name was whatever I wanted and nobody would question it. So I did. First step towards transitioning.
I did it. Messed up my life for a while.
I had got the urge, I had traveled but carried the memories of my past along and did not enjoy the new place.
No, cannot say I do. I have not really grasped what it means to start a new life.