i get these weird moods where someone will say something and my mood just takes a nose dive, it must be a subconscious thing because i can never explain it.
it must have a trigger but all i can do is guess, my mood dipped tonight and i have tried watching a couple of good movies that were on and they did help a bit and then went for a burger in mac d’s but i just feel like crap basically.
i feel very fed up with myself wondering what the point is, why am i even here? its pretty boring stuff but it gets to me, i’m not going to do anything stupid but i just wish i had a purpose in life, i hate everything when i am like this and i dont even want to talk sometimes, i will just go quiet and hide away, i just feel so horrible and bad.
my main problem is chronic depression and what you described is basically normal.
if i had a gun yesterday i would have done the deed, that is why we do not keep guns in the house.
i am sorry you are hurting, know that some one cares and understands.
take care
Yes I get depression. It gets triggered kinda like you’re talking about. It hasn’t been as bad since I’ve stopped working though. It’s more just like a dull and emply life, no strong compulsion to go and blow my brains out like I used to have. Sometimes I get depressed when around normal people because it makes me realize how messed up I am, also around people with families because I don’t have that.
I am under a depressed state now, I never get happy really. Today I took my first dose of Lamictal, its a mood stabilizer with strong antidepressant properties. I must admit I felt better today - so far. I achieved pretty many things today.
I even felt like drawing a bit. I just hope this lasts long term. But so far so good. Maybe you can talk to your doctor?
I get depression. In fact, before I was diagnosed with schizophrenia, I was diagnosed with major depression. I haven’t found antidepressants helpful. The only thing that is helpful to me is school. It gives me hope for a better future. Before school, all I had to look forward to was homelessness when my parents died. I still worry about that–that they will die before I finish school.
I hate it when that part of the show starts in with no warning. I mean, depressed when my Dad had a heart problem and the family was so scared you could taste it? Yes, depression made sense to me. Understood it and kick it’s butt…
Out of the blue on a fine sunny day when nothing happened and I just can’t get over this gripping feeling of hopelessness and uselessness, self-loathing and sorrow?.. hate it. I really hate that part. It’s hard to kick that one. It’s a blind sider and it takes me a few days to catch my breaths and ask, “What in the world is wrong with me? and WHY?”
Thats how i get depressed, and it takes couple of hours till my mood goes up to normal, but i found solution that keeps my mood stable for a long time. When ever i go into depression due to sad story, negative talk, than i know its time for me to take just one capsule of total amino acids, it keeps my mood stable for about 8-10 days. Than i will repeat again. Its much better than harmful mood stabilizers.