Personally, I don’t think it even comes close. And I’ve been very depressed for long periods. When I was depressed, I could at least feel like a person and function tolerably well.
Also, my hypomanic mixed episodes were about 10 times more agonozing than any depressive episode I’ve experienced. And I came pretty close to maxing out those depression tests.
I know how you feel, I can’t believe how depressed I get, I have a lot going on that is good in life so it shouldn’t be the case that I get depressed but I know that doesn’t matter, all that matters is what is going on with my brain chemistry.
I don’t like the overlap of depression and schizophrenia, or for that matter the overlap I have of schizophrenia, depression and anxiety.
Luckily my anxiety has been in check for a while now, anxiety is a terrible thing too.
I would say the worst I have felt is being so paranoid and delusional that you cause yourself to stay awake all night clutching your chest unable to gear down.
Feeling like someone or something is out to get you is scarier than wishing you weren’t alive, the two feelings are hard to compare though and feel completely different.
Sleeping for 12 hours a day and being inconsolably sad and unmotivated the rest of the day is not hell for me. On my worst, that was a good day. Depression is not the worst fate in the universe, it just fools us into thinking it is. There are much worse things than depression, and many of them don’t even involve mental illness at all. But I didn’t see this until my depression was over.
Also, schizophrenia is so much more than positive symptoms.
If I was on antidepressants all I’d post about would be suicide. I’m so happy it hasn’t come to that. My psychologist said antidepressants help 1/3 of people, don’t do anything for 1/3, have negative effects for 1/3.
Guys Im deteriorating rapidly lately, my problem is I have depression and psychosis/scz. How can they both be treated at the same time. AP make me depressed, AD make me psychotic, and my illness gets worse every day, right now Ive started have derealization, so my AP has been lowered and Im back on Lexapro. My problems are big and I dont have a diagnosis, my psych hasnt diagnosed schz yet but thinks anxiety depression. Hes wrong but Im going to end up in the hospital