Denouncing material life

Is this part of the sz? or am I normal?

I just don’t like material things, and I own very few material things. I do not crave to buy a lot of things, and even gave away many of the things I already owned. I don’t have a bed, but simply a mattress on the ground. I don’t have a washing machine, as I wash by hand. Don’t have tv. I have but few clothes, which I mend myself… and so on.

I also wished for a more simpler life and considered homelessness, denouncing all material life. Because material things just don’t make me happy. if only, they get in the way. But cannot become homeless because I need surgery soon, otherwise I would have been already… I think.

Not sure if it is the illness talking or if I am completely sane.

What do you think? am why am I thinking like this?

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Don’t you need a place to rest in?

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My ex has a similar mind frame I think due to having been abused and thrown out at a young age so grew to not have any interest in material possessions which continues to this day. I’ve come across a few people who have an anarchist mind set when it comes to ownership and gaining a sense of independence from authority. But everything has limits. Theres a really fascinating interview of a male anarchist on the white soft underbelly interviews on youtube you may find a kindred spirit in. I gave away all my possessions at some time. But since I felt so disgusting in an acute hospital ive come to prefer beautiful surroundings. I gained a lot of freedom walking in the mountains on my own going for weeks at a time. I cant describe the sense of freedom I got. But it was immensely pleasurable to do. Just a bit dodgy as a female. Anyway. To each their own independent of mental health sufferings. I guess things can go in either direction of extremes.

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I will take them off your hands for you. I like my creature comforts.

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I like my iPad, iPhone,…

You’re probably talking to the wrong person.

I don’t like wasting money though.

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I can say from experience that there is nothing fun or noble about being homeless. It is a miserable, humilating existence. You’d have to be seriously cracked in the head to want it a second time.

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I find that people that haven’t been forced to go without things and homes often romanticize it.

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Don’t forget the convenience of access to a private toilet when needed. There are few public washrooms that homeless are actually welcome to use (especially if you’ve been homeless long enough that you look homeless). Nothing like having to shite in public spots when you hope no one will pass by and you have to use something nasty in place of TP.

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Don’t forget to give up that material cell phone and internet access that you post here with :stuck_out_tongue:

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That’s true, but in turn I get to chat with people in real life, maybe… :smiley:

Um, you won’t like the other homeless people you are chatting with. You really won’t. (They will also steal from you the second you look away.)

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I fear being homeless. I am nowhere near that situation right now, but I still get the shivers just from picturing such a scenario. Some say it means freedom. I don’t see how not having food, clothes, shelter and a phone (or risking them being stolen the second you look away, as pointed above) could be a freeing experience. I’d go nuts.

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This is interesting… I experienced this as well. Find it hard to grow roots somewhere, as I am not used to it. Moved about 15 times.

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Yeah thats exactly his experience moved loads. Lived in his car with a cat for a long period too. I think it is something to do with authority figures and dominance hierarchies hes very sensitive to. So you see things at a subtle direct way that others miss. Due to the extremes of abuse life experiences. Like theres a study that children whove been abused perceive ‘ghosts’ or presences as children and are prone to those experiences as adults. This was in a psychology journal I read. I do think senses are heightened if youve been subject to trauma. Like theres evidence that my psychologist who specialised in trauma brought to my attention that double binds can be created through emotional abuse that creates psychosis in a person. I see it in some people they have a heightened awareness of their environment and people that makes them deeper than the norm and can be particularly sensitive to environmental cues or triggers that put them on the alert. Without necessarily telling anyone what they are seeing. Theres a deep intelligence going on. I think people with street smarts can have this too. Just a difference you either see or you don’t because you can’t.

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I think it may play in your favour. People live like unexpected gypsies moving from place to place living in vans. Its a lifestyle not necessarily ideal. Depends on your mind I guess. Can have very beautiful experiences that way. Also communes attract certain sorts and theres off the grid places people can go if they are seeking a more ‘ideal’ life. Also dont know if youve heard of woofing. Willing workers on organic farms. Some people travel and live the way they want that way. Then theres buddhist places. Depends what you see as your ideal I imagine that goes against certain percieved necessities.

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Uh, no. Not me and not a single one of the other abused kids I attended therapy groups with as an adult. I call BS.

Well you can disagree. I can also. You dont have to believe the study and you can take my words with a grain of salt. But it is people i have mets experience and they have been subject to horrendous abuse.

Not sure how assrape = ghosts, but, whatever. Not the weirdest thing I’ve seen in this community, but it’s up there.

I don’t quite understand what you mean. I did say percieved, presences or ghosts as children or adults. I did not say it was actual. And that seperate from the actual abuse. I’ve also experienced abuse without saying what that is. But I mispercieved alot until I went through heavy trauma therapy multiple times.

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Not a single one mentioned perceiving ghosts that I recall and I have good recall.